Well thats what it feels like…. beginning again….nothing like a fresh start, and yet every beginning is just an end and every end is just a beginning…..all part of the merry go round. Sometimes it feels like im starting over, new pages to turn, ah ah moments, difficulties arising, difficulties abating, opinions hardening, opinions softening, boundaries strengthening and losing their edges…..and yet in this constantly changing world, the essential you always remains the same.
Its good to stay alert, aware, awake cause when youre asleep you keep on falling into the same old potholes on your driveway thru life (and who wants all that hassle!!). You will only ever realise, it seems to me, how futile the whole exercise is, all your plans and projects, misdemeanours and grand endeavours, when you somehow or other wake up!!
On the other hand, and there are many of those, paradoxically you got to do what you got to do. Ive written a lot of music over the last number of years, different genres, different vibs and each ‘project’ ive completed seems to have being,in hind sight, an exercise in self healing. No matter how many spiritual practises you learn, workshops and retreats you complete, books on the subject you read there is no substitute for just simply doing whatever it is you feel in your heart. Maybe then you might wake up… I dont know.
Life though, offers us lots of space to wake up, thats my experience at least!! It is very cleverly set up to challenge you to your core, each and every day. And life is very generous too…..so much fear given into……anger and aggression unleashed….and still we’re given chance after chance to see the folly of our ways. So how does life help you to wake up. A simple straight forward question…now could i have the answer please. A bit like monty pythons quest for the meaning of life, as soon as you think youve cracked it, another issue pops up……well maybe youll find the answer, if you come to my next talk/workshop/funshop next Wed 30 May, Annacarty, County Tipperary, 7.30 – 10pm entitled ‘Explore your own unique universal sound’. There are however no guarantees youll find it. For full details on the event, ring me at 0872541892 and visit http://www.soulretreat.ie/events .
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