what is your lifes purpose?

i recently took part in an online conversation entitled ‘lets chat about your purpose’… i liked when someone said ‘what is ones purpose anyway, is it not what we are doing now in this moment’…. 

on reflection i found a resonance with this for i feel my purpose is to do exactly what i am doing in this moment, this is what i have come to do, and whatever it is i am doing, saying or feeling, it is powerful, even if its only cleaning the dishes. To make my purpose more ‘real’, more truthful, more honest, more powerful, it is not a question of what i will become, it is a question of whether i realise that what i am doing is not being done alone…. there are a whole host of angels walking with me and ready to work with me, call them angels or other dimensions or guides or whatever one feels…… however it appears they will not impose, they will wait for the appropriate moment, the appropriate request, they will wait until we realise that they and us are one and the same and that everything we do in this moment, which is, as i have said, our purpose, will never reveal its true magic, even if its only cleaning the dishes, unless it is done together with them

my angels walk with me in all i do and say and feel and i am so grateful for them… i wish to sing with them, jam with them, because it brings my mind such joy and touches my body with such peace and i will do so, that is, jam with my angels this saturday 6th may, 7pm irish time facebook live and youtube…. come and join in the fun 

may your force be with you in all you do and say and feel and it is so 🙂


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musical meanderings, miracles and misfortunes on a full moon


in 2007 i gave up my architecture business because i was physically, emotionally and mentally exhausted, from the void music arose and i recorded an album, began a music career following the old music business model and found that that sort of thing, wasn’t my sort of thing…. i was surprised that the most favourable comments on the album were about my voice and very little said about the production which i felt was the most impressive element….. i wandered in a musical wilderness for a while and came across chloe goodchild…. she played a drone sound, one single note, and asked someone to come into the centre of the sound healing group and sing, i went in and said ‘what will i sing?’ she said ‘sing to this drone’ ‘am…… huh…. ok’…. that’s when i discovered what i sound like when i sing with my belly….. i applied this new found awareness to my song writing and now being more proficient at recording my music, i found the production of songs much more enjoyable and free flowing, resulting in 4 demo albums of new songs….. my school said that engineering was my forte and music was a hobby, i now discovered that its the other way round.… as my marriage was coming to an end, access to my sound studio was erratic and i again found myself wandering in the musical wilderness, experiencing everything from deep depression and fear to glimpses of joy and beauty. At a mens group gathering in the czech republic 2013 i was singing to the mountains with my guitar when i was asked to go acapella, an unforgettable moment….. i left ireland in 2016, feeling i may never come back and i sang acapella to sliabh an iarainn, the royal mountain of my childhood, before i left, another unforgettable moment….  my wanderings continued, now seeking a place to settle and rest my weary body. The journey brought me back to ireland and here in my forest i have found temporary comfortable accommodation that allows me now at last to sing more freely, pulling out the 4 demo cds recorded in my old studio and playing them on my new livestreams…. they have clinged tight to me these last years and are relieved that now they have become public…. i notice other songs recorded at the same time which i didn’t include in the albums and these touched people’s hearts more than most of what was included…. this experience and messages from my dreams point towards change… my angelic self is all very fine but it needs more grounding…. i am been forced to see this one way or the other… something inside is struggling to get out…. i feel, yes i am worthy and there are gifts all over the place, it’s just that i couldn’t see some of them clearly enough…. but i can see one of them now…. as i walked through the forest yesterday i said i will unwrap this gift this evening friday on facebook live and youtube at 6pm irish time, join me and lets see, hear, feel what it looks, sounds, feels like 🙂  

‘oh wait !!’ you say ‘what about the miracle?’ ‘the miracle is you’

see you this evening at 6

the dream


the dream

me, an ex girlfriend, hotel bedroom, old frail man, treasure in the dirt and stone portal

i would like to describe a dream i had on tuesday/wednesday night 29 Mar last and which has had a profound effect on me

i was in a luxurious hotel with my ex…. we were not close emotionally but in bed the soft skin and warmth was very arousing…. i had been to the toilet for a pee and she had moved over slightly to my side of the bed indicating an interest in physical contact…. before i hopped in she said ‘are you wet? i dont like that feel on my skin’ i said ‘i’m not sure, i was thinking of something else, on the way back i saw a gardener that caught my attention, i will go back and clean up’…. on the way back to the bathroom i saw the gardener again, down on the lawn in a beautifully landscaped hotel garden, a frail man looking incapable of completing the job at hand…. he had sweeped up leaves and grass and dirt on the lawn and was picking something up from it with his hands bringing it to his face, to smell/taste it, finding in it some treasure which he, like gollum, wanted no one else to see, so even though he was out in the open in broad daylight with the hotel of several floors encircling him and able to see him, including me, he looked around defensively, deceitfully innocuous, disingenuous and surreptitiously placed the found item, this treasure, into the inside pocket of his long coat like fagan from the musical ‘oliver’…. it looked like a sausage wrapped in paper, it wasn’t clear… but i am certain he wanted no one else to see it…. there was a suggestion that this item would popularly be described as dirty and disgusting, nonetheless it had value for him, it was a treasure

i continued on my way and found myself in the same garden which had a stone wall about 1 metre high running through it and in the wall was a matching stone portal with pillars on both sides topped with a stone lintel…. for some reason instead of walking through, i climbed on top of the lintel and as i looked down i started to get dizzy, fear arose, the ground beckoning menacingly….. there was another stone pillar rising up higher than the lintel on which i was able to steady myself and then i climbed back down


the message i received 

from my scant knowledge of jungian dream interpretation, a dream generally has distinct stages something like this:

the setting

in the images and symbols of this dream there are predominantly the masculine and feminine archetypes which are searching for wholeness in the body called fionntain…. the dream begins in a luxurious hotel in which the split, the canyon, i experience in my psyche is revealed. The feminine and the masculine are not emotionally close yet given a limited number of primal triggers, such as warmth and luxury, there can be physical attraction which temporarily bridges the split

the development

on this occasion the feminine is no longer passive and clearly expresses her desire for the masculine to be clean. The masculine in his wish to be clean, perhaps meaning pure or integrated or whole, then is shown that he feels he is an old man with not enough energy for the task he has taken on…. yet, still, in the dirt of life he finds a treasure, which he is still unclear about, which he keeps from others, in defence and with deceit, out of fear of not being commercial, leading to the fear of destitution. Yet his attempts to hide are very poor because all can see what he is doing… it feels to me my unconscious self is showing me that at times i am not fully convinced of the treasure i possess, not really in a relaxed free flowing place, at times i act awkwardly, foolishly, this is a challenge for me, where is my power i ask, i know i have a treasure, i am unsure what to do with it, when there’s even a hint of it the mind kicks in with reasoned ‘familiar, tried and tested’ alternatives, when there a hint of it then there’s the question will i be met with disapproval if i reveal what i have found, will i attract the woman of my dreams if i reveal my real power, will poverty and struggle be my lot…. the usual fears 🙂

the crisis

i am shown a way through to somewhere new, a clear path to the core of my being, my essence, as the symbol of stone infers, but instead i muddy the waters, make the path difficult for myself and i climb it, dominate it, control it, feel more superior than it…. I now find myself on top, there’s not a lot of room up here and when i look down unease arises, uncertainty in these lofty godlike heights, i am unsteady on my feet and eventually forced to find a way back down to earth. This would appear to be the climax of the dream, showing the resultant dizziness, fatigue and uncertainty that is the result of my secretive, deceitful ways, the result of searching in god consciousness for comfort in belief, blinding my vision and driving me to take on the lofty patriarchal hangup of dominance over the feminine earth, a neurosis not just in me but in the collective psyche, a neurosis which has not just affected and abused women, but men too and all other genders

the context, the resolution and way forward

the way forward is quite clear, the masculine in me must come down from the lofty heights, honed in the religious circles i was breast feed on, in the roman catholic church and other similar organisations and affiliates and triggered by the neurosis within each cell of my body and come back down onto solid ground….  and its not like there is a problem, or i’ve done something wrong, these are experiences which i have opened myself to, now its time for something new, more harmony….  it is a challenge but one which my consciousness is doing everything it can to guide me through, using all sorts of media including at present many very clear dreams….this is a message to say its time to leave the vibration you once soaked yourself in, and discover something that will allow the masculine and feminine within to live in the bliss the world is crying out for…. today it feels the way forward for me remains in continuing to build the dance pavilion and share my songs and sounds, but more songs of the raw earthy fionntain and less of the angelic stuff 

you are invited to join me on my forthcoming livestreams on facebook and youtube tonite at 9pm, friday 6pm and sunday 3pm, in which i will be expanding on this and subsequent dreams and moving the vib of the transmissions consciously to the more earthy tracks from my archives 🙂 !!!

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making an exhibition of myself

i will be making an exhibition of myself on fb, insta, youtube, twitch and twitter this week on wed, fri and sun, 8pm irish time

to wet your appetite i would like to expand on my recent facebook post about manifestation

 The secret to manifesting what you desire is steering you straight in the face’ fmb

as i said before from my perspective, manifestation is happening right now…. everything around you is a manifestation of your desire…. there is no need to wait for manifestation or try to manifest, manifestation is now, you are the manifestor, the effortless creator of all…..

to allow the mind and body to realise that one is the manifestor, the effortless creator of all, i suggest that we give them the chance to come down from the neurotic addictive need to try to manifest, and to do that first we need to relax, breath like a baby, stay aligned with the love we know we have, even if its just a faint flicker of light, and do what we love…. for me this boils down to consuming only what is for my wellbeing, nutritious food, images and messages, aromas, sounds and touch …..from this relaxed space of doing what you love, if you wish to dream of more than what you have in the present, which as you know, is a gift, thats why we call it the present, then go right ahead and dream of all your beautiful desires, with petitons, submissions, applications, affirmations, visualisations, enumeration, all manner of actions, continuing always to remain aligned with the godself, which is yourself, the self, and trusting that whatever manifests is perfect, just what the ‘doctor’ ordered…. this is how i see it all from my perspective which is evolving and transmutating and radiating 24/7….  i would to hear how you are answering your dreams and desires.

join me wed, fri and sun this week 8pm irish time for more of the same on fb, insta, youtube, twitch and twitter

may your force be with you and it is so 🙂


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what’s going on ?

who tells the first willow leaves to appear…. does the sun pull itself out of bed…. does the thrush build her nest all on her own….. well done everyone we’re all doing a fabulous job

seemingly i will be appearing solo and live on facebook, instagram, youtube, twitter and twitch sunday 26 mar 8pm gmt…. looking forward to having some fun 🎵🕺🙂💃🎵



heavy emotions do ‘we’ need to ‘heal’ ‘them’

heavy emotions have been my key to something that looks like happiness, i faced them, felt them, named them and loved them, the longings, traumas and fears, uncertainties, frustrations and jealousy, which arise for me more intensely in close relationships….  in this practice of facing, naming and loving them, i was ‘doing’ something to ‘them’, to this other thing, to ‘heal’ ‘them’, they were therefore a problem….. but this month i have become more aware that they are me and i am them….. so now i simply feel them deeply, or at least do my best to, that is all, be with them totally, no naming, no analysing, no thought about them…. just feeling them, for love is who i am, in every moment of every day, this is all that seems to be required…. it seems to work, come back to me in a few years and i’ll let you know if it’s long lasting!! 🙂

the ‘no thought’ part as you can imagine is quite a challenge, because i am programmed to think my way through the ‘problem’. so i must continually bring myself back to the feeling and be with it, to be with all that is, which i am, that is all. It feels like i am being brought back continually right throughout the day to the essence, the core, the love, the music, the rhythm, the dance, the play of something ineffable, which i can feel principally in my belly and this feeling inspires me to continue

just been with all that arises throughout the day is what meditation is, not just for set periods, the whole day 24/7… therefore meditation is attention, attention is love, love is life

i am not advocating an absence of thought, ‘no thought’ maybe too extreme a phrase, i am saying that there has to be a realisation that we have being programmed to spend so much energy chasing our tails trying to analyse a feeling when all that is required is to simply feel the *******thing…. anyway there’s never just one, all feelings are vibrating all the time, so you can’t analyse just one because even though it may feel strong and singular, it is still affected by all the others all the time and thus variable….we need to go on a thought diet and use it only when it promotes our health and wellbeing 

there are of course lots of other wonderful emotions, all the wildness, joy and fulfilment etc, but they seem to be like very happy children playing away without a care in the world, needing no ‘attention’ from ‘us’ !! 🙂

Join me tomorrow monday 20 march 2023, the equinox, on facebook live at 8pm gmt for more of the same 🙂 http://www.facebook.com/fionntain

the entertainment ‘business’

this is a comment i wrote on the below podcast

thank you david hanna aideen daniel and jack for this wonderful show…. i woke this morning at 6am thinking about the show and why i was still so impressed by it, was it just that i find aideen and hanna so attractive or was there something else… entertainment, a performer entertaining an audience, is to me very influenced by patriarchy, top down authority that seeks to lord over all with the excuse that some god has given ‘man’ dominion over the earth

And God said, Let us make man in our image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creepeth upon the earth. genesis 1:26-28 king james version’  


so royalty can now justify its control over their subjects, governments over their citizens, priests over their congregations, teachers over their students, employers over their employees and so on and so forth. We’re all messed up in the head. In order to shore up its very shaky foundations the entertainment business is highly controlled and manipulated… there has been control over the channels, movies transporting us to fantasy, the performers presented with endless hype. i have followed davids comedy with great gratitude, from the street to the studio to the national airways and now to his home. There is a progression here and one that inspires me, for although the entertainment business is highly controlled i feel its losing its grip, it’s hard to continually hold the ball down in the water, nature which ‘man’ seeks to control, is uncontrollable, it is the one calling shots and the arms will get tired and the ball will rise to the surface again, the talent, music and humour of our performers are discovering new ways to shine. Humanity has been inebriated, intoxicated and addicted to patriarchal perversion….. but it is changing and the internet is fueling the change, the minions, the subjects have the mic and the camera now and we are sharing our gifts like never before

in short what i see evolving is that authority is shifting to community, fantasy to reality, hype to truth, noise to music and this podcast is a shining example of this change. Thank you all for coming together to share your gifts and talent and your truth. Inspiring, horrAAAAyyyyyy 🙂

Side note: i skipped the conversation on chris rock because i feel that that slap may have been staged and for me merits no more attention at present  

i will be presenting my own show next monday 20 march, the equinox, at 8pm gmt, on facebook live and other platforms.you are very welcome to join in http://www.facebook.com/fionntain

returning to fb live on the equinox next monday 20th march 8pm gmt


so much in the gregorian calendar is debatable, why is the start of the year the first of january? does the word november not come from the number 9 and december the number 10 ? It’s sensitivity to natures calendar is scant, being seemingly content to be a mere division of earths spin time around the sun….  january 1 is indeed a celebratory day for many largely because this is what we have been given, what we’re used to…. but what if new years day synced with the rhythms of nature and say was placed at the start of spring when earth is pregnant with new life, giving birth to the first of many things, sometime in february or march, perhaps at spring solstice (autumn for our southern friends) …. now there’s a day for a celebration, a day to honour that unique moment when day and night are of equal duration, there’s no debate here about the power of this symbolic moment, the balance it promotes, the opposites coming together in harmony, all equal in the eyes of ‘god’, the light and the dark, the black and the white, i love it…. and so i have decided to return to fb live on the equinox, the 20th march next, a day to begin again and sing. My earlier transmissions were at irregular intervals. This time round i will transmit regularly starting next week on mon, wed, fri and sun at 8pm gmt and see how it goes, adjust days and times to suit you my audience. There will be some old songs sung in a new way and some new songs sung in an old way 🙂 i also plan to broadcast simultaneously to youtube, instagram and twitch

you are very welcome to join in next monday 20 march, the equinox, at 8pm gmt, on facebook live and other platforms

may your force be with you and it is so 🙂



There is love in the world because there is fear. There is light in the world because there is dark. You can’t ever know one without the other. Tip too much into either arena and you are lost. We must maintain balance, it’s the natural law. Too much wind and the branch breaks

‘Our virtues and our failures are inseparable, like force and matter. When they separate man is no more’ Nikola Tesla

It is quite clear that darkness is attempting to swallow the light completely. It has been doing it by stealth for thousands of years and we have become so used to it that it has felt normal. Now it is easier to see. The gloves are off. First it is neccessary to understand that the primary weapon used to keep us dumb is MSM. Second it is necessary to understand that they have told us what they want to do and they want your freedom, however little of it that is left. Thirdly, if you haven’t already begun to do this, i encourage you now to wean off all unnecessary ‘normal’ mainstream stuff, find others who are strong like you in your community and prepare to live in a world where governments attempt to control everything via mandatory digital certs thus obliterating freedom.

The main reason why we are in this situation is not because of governments or secret societies. The collective consciousness, you and i together as a whole, have created this, by the choices we make, the items we consume and the thoughts we think. That is why it is only us that can take us out of this, firstly by engaging with what is going on within. As a collective we have been distracted from what is within us for years, it’s not easy to be alone with yourself, we all want company, yes it is good, but there has to be balance. We need to love ourselves just as much as we love company. I’m still on that journey. It doesn’t have to be a perfect love, it needs an acknowledgement. If we all said tomorrow, ‘ok we see now, we’ve been afraid to look within, let’s stop for 2 minutes and look within’ this would be the beginning of the end of the current control matrix we are in. There is no alleluia chorus, clouds parting and voices from heaven or knights in shining armour coming for us. There never was, it was all a very cleverly concealed deliberate lie. The power has remained in you and me all along. I’m not saying i have all the answers. I’m just giving you my opinion. I am waking up to this lie everyday at the moment. The more i read and investigate the more i see how i have been duped. Religions and many elements of the New Age movements, controlled not by the heavens but by the secret societies, have brainwashed us into believing that a messiah is going to come. Our innocence as children has been violated by probably the worst lie known to humanity, ie we need a saviour. This lie puts us into a complacent trance. Ah sure it’ll be grand. We are not victims we are powerful beings and now is the time to show that by action, we need to get off the tracks a train is coming

I would prefer to be singing songs and creating art but, for me at least, today is not the time for that. Transitional protective arrangements need to be put in place now. I visualise a time when i stand in front of my beautiful home with its wonderfully appointed creative space down into a silvan valley with other homes of diverse design, along the water courses, cascading into pools and lakes, all aligned with an environment that gives us all we need. This is how i feel my power. This is how i wake up each morning. This is what i believe is happening already on another timeline. This is how magnificent i am and we are without exception. This is how i feel today. Tomorrow who knows!! Thanks for reading

Lets keep our minds focused, our bodies strong and our vibrations high. 🙂 

The St Patrick Breastplate is now Null and Void

The St. Patrick’s Breastplate* is now null and void 17March2022

I arise today

through the mighty power of my mind and body and as a sovereign being, i declare that in my world the energy of the St Patrick’s Breastplate is, from this moment forward, null and void.

I overturn all the trauma, psychosis, schizophrenia and damage its words have instilled in the people of Ireland and elsewhere through values and beliefs promoted by secret gods and malevolent spirits which i openly acknowledge are a manifestation of our own collective mind.

I arise today

and i praise the power, courage and love, perseverance and generosity of our extraterrestrial friends who are here to assist us to wake up out of the lie we are living in, which we have created and out of which we must find the way. To live in the paradise that we have longed for, we must realise once again that we are already, each one of us, no exemptions, of royal ancestry, Kings and Queens.

I arise today

and i reclaim for my ancestors and for all the people of earth, today and always, our love of the sun, of fire and wind and air, of water and rivers and seas, of clay and plants, of rocks and trees and all sentient beings.

I arise today

with my strength to pilot me, my wisdom to guide me, my eyes to look before me, my ears to hear for me and my hands to guard me. I am god and on behalf of my world i declare that we, you and i my fellow humans, are the ones who have created this mess and this beauty and we, only we, are the ones who will get us out of this mess so that we can begin to enjoy this beauty.

I summon today

my mental clarity, physical strength, my courage and love and thank them for continuing to guide my mind and body and free me from the snares of devils, the temptations that distract me from my truth, free me from everyone who may wish me ill, afar and near, free me from evil, cruel and merciless power, the incantations of false prophets and the ravages of oppressive laws which i openly acknowledge are all a manifestation of our own collective mind. I am also very thankful for the experience of oppression we have endured without which we can never experience the taste of freedom.

I summon today

all brave people who have acknowledged the truth of their divine presence but who have been branded as heretics, witches, smiths and wizards and accused wrongly of corrupting humanity’s body and soul and i say to you, we are sorry, we did not realise our own innate power and sought to acquire it by controlling others. I invite you to walk among us again as the gods and goddesses that you are and let us witness your power, your splendour, your desires and imaginings so that we can all marvel at the glory of our own magnificence, as one, in abundance, caring for one another in communities of love, justice, self responsibility, self care, free will and free energy.

I am god and if i wish, i am protected against poison, against burning, against drowning, against wounding, and if i wish, i live in a paradise of abundance and so it is.

There is no one else but me,

no one else with me,

no one else in front of me,

no one else behind me,

no one else below me,

no one above me,

no one to my right hand,

no one to my left,

no one all around me,

no one else within me.

No one when i lie down,

no one when i sit down,

no one when i rise,

no one else in the heart of everyone who thinks of me,

no one else behind the words of everyone who speaks of me,

no one else in every eye that sees me.

There is no one else but me.

I am it, I am this, I am that.

I am god, if i like, for this is my choice, perhaps the only choice.

I am the one who crafts my reality.


* St. Patrick’s Breastplate is a prayer attributed to one of Ireland’s patron saints. According to tradition, St. Patrick wrote it in 433 A.D. for divine protection. The term breastplate refers to a piece of armour worn in battle. More recent research suggests its author was anonymous. This prayer has also been called ‘The Cry of the Deer’


Part 1  an introduction and my personal conclusions

Part 2  a description of the messages i have read and how they have changed my perception of my reality




I share this news in order to highlight the subtle ways we are being manipulated in our world today. Not that we are victims, for we are gods creating our own reality. Many of us are caught within a lie so old it feels like ‘normal’, it’s a lie within the dream, and both are our creations. It is my intention in sharing these personal truths that more and more people will openly discuss their own personal stories and cut the tape on one of the tools the controllers use to keep us chained to the lie and that is KEEP QUIET!! For we need to support one another. To help in whatever we can, to encourage, inspire, mentor if need be those of us who are aware that there are fields of freedom on our doorsteps if only we can find the key to open the door

This is a moment like never before, as all moments appear to be. I’m appearing to be more aware than ever before, manifesting a space where for the first time in many years i can do my own thing, or so it seems….. free from the restrictions of religion, marriage, obligations to persons, organisations or things and any fear of lack…. I acknowledge i have everything i need, i want more, but i have all i need, exactly what i need…. And so i breath easy and relax. Reflecting, touching the trees and watching the clouds drift over the mountains, i find i want to review all my life, my beliefs, my choices, realising that a lot of what i believe in and most of the choices i have made have been influenced by something or someone else other than me, ie, it wasn’t an internal knowing, a gut feeling.


The top 3 beliefs that were based on stories i heard from others were, Jesus and Mary Magdalene, (both a huge lifelong influence and on/off/love/hate relationship), the Beings from the star system Pleiades (commonly known on earth as the 7 sisters) and as i would call them, The Fairies. I asked each one to answer me and i wasn’t long getting an answer. First i received from whom i felt was Jesus the message ‘You are Love and You are Loved and this is all you need to know’. Notwithstanding the knowing in my heart that yes i am love and i am loved, the rest of it i feel was an attempt to stop me asking questions, 

Then a friend mentioned the Youtube channel Cosmic Agency, messages from the Pleiades shared with Gosia from Cosmic Agency, who in turn has shared them freely with the world which i am very grateful for. The revelations about the fabrication of the Jesus and Mary Magdalene story, the attempted distortion and control of all aspects of Life by the cab^al and the vast array of lies necessary to shore up their tyrannical facade were far reaching. I have never watched such a detailed, subject by subject unravelling of the lie that we live in and of the wondrous expanse of our Universe, most of which has been hidden from us by a very secretive network of domination and suppression. Again it is not as if we are victims, on the contrary, we are the creators of it all, all life, all planets, the whole cosmos and more. The messages here remind us that in the midst of all this manipulation, deceit, psychosis, war mongering, fear mongering and mind control, we, each one of us are magnificence personified, the glory of the universe, the very universe itself, a jewel in the night sky, the radiant sun at dawn. Though it may appear to some that we have fallen deep into the gutter, we can still see the stars, to paraphrase Oscar Wilde. Each one of us alone must carve our own path to freedom, by whatever means is at our disposal, whether that be to remain alone or join with others, whether it be seemingly big or small, we are called to create. The messages mark a significant shift in the vibration of my body. I have set aside many of my lifelong spiritual concepts. There are translation issues, perception issues and a need for reflection on all that has been imparted but in this moment, i feel the overall effect is empowerment, increased energy and relief as the divine being i am in this body i call Fionntáin. Nurturing all that is good and inspiring and fun and relaxing, our friends from Taygeta reveal to the world how beautiful we already are.

Taygeta is a star in the Pleiades. The Cosmic Agency Youtube channel produced by Gosia Duszak delivers messages from the Taygetans in their spaceship to the people of earth. There is also a Spanish channel produced by her friend Robert. The Taygetans who wrote to Gosia beginning in December 2017 were mostly women, Swaruu, Yazhi, Aneeka, Athena, Rashell and Minerva, are the ones i’ve watched. Gosia began uploading videos to youtube in September 2018. I came across them last month on 25Jan22, so i had lots of videos to watch to play catchup. The subjects i was most interested in were earth based technology, power control, free energy, religion and the environment, then our solar system, extraterrestrial races, Angels and Taygetans. I didn’t watch videos about how the taygetan ships moved thru space, the afterlife, most of the interviews with other humans and live questions. Also i skipped over many of the questions Gosia asked because i was happy they were already answered. 

New revelations abound in this galactic exploration of reality. Some information i have already heard, but some was new for me and cosmic, mind blowing and compelling viewing. From one perspective, if it is true for you, it builds the foundation on which a new history of our world and universe can be built. So much to reflect on and to consider. So important was the content for my journey and for the world that i decided to write this review because it helps me to soak it all in and make sense of it 


The Taygetan language apparently is very plastic, along with spoken words they send blocks of information by telepathy. In compliance with space laws, their messages to Gosia and her friends had to be typed, which they found ‘frustrating’ at times. As well as that Gosia was translating into Spanish and English and neither are her native tongue. Also we humans have a very black and white linear way of understanding any idea, whilst i began to notice that the Taygetans are more multidimensional in their messages and words may have several meanings. As they alluded to often, there are many ways of understanding any topic. There may be a multitude of answers to any question. So i felt i needed at all times to be aware of these factors


I was fascinated by many of the stories and the revelations that most of what we’ve been told are lies. Because i have had such a strong focus on energies outside myself, which of course there are none, i am all, yet from another perspective, in the finely tuned balancing act of life, such a focus can tip you into a space where there is a sense that someone is going to tell you something that’s going to change everything, or you may ask ‘why am i not receiving any messages’. Despite the fact that you may continually say to yourself that you are the Divine, if you have a connection to Jesus and other such energies, its so strong, so potent with millennia of manipulation, that there may very well be a sense of waiting for something. With these messages i get the chance to set all aside and just see how i feel about it all, all i’ve ever heard, all i’ve ever experienced, the whole gamut of me. Its like a breath of fresh air is blowing thru every nook and cranny of my being and im revitalised, brought back to life. 🙂

Before describing the many levels on which the shift is occurring and giving a detailed analysis of the Taygetans message, i would like to share with you a summary of my main conclusions, which are written as i perceived them, being of course all anyone can do:

There is no one else but you, no one else with you, no one in front of you, no one behind you, no one below you, no one above you, no one to your right hand, no one to your left, no one all around you, no one else within you.  No one when you lie down, no one when you sit down, no one when you arise, no one else in the heart of everyone who thinks of you, no one else behind the words of everyone who speaks of you, no one else in every eye that sees you. There is no one else but you. You are it, the only it, however you wish to describe it. You are god if you like. This is the antithesis of St Patrick’s breastplate, a prayer attributed to the roman catholic patron of Ireland, whether a real life figure or not, he is another concept which has been manipulated by the vat^^ican to control people for millennia

You are Source. I am a source. We all come from and are returning to the same source, even Bill Gates. And we are all doing it in our unique way, with our unique frequency, our unique timeline, with all frequencies and timelines converging in this moment which is source. If one chooses to do this in a low frequency which most of us humans are doing, then this is simply our choice, it doesn’t mean we are damned, it doesnt mean its inevitable ‘bad’ things are going to happen. It is a choice. When we watch videos like these we are reminded of our power and inspired to stand steadfast in this power, our divinity. And we realise also the lie we are living in, the collective subconscious lie that dictates so much of what we do. We connect with our power and realise that we are the creators of it all, and thus we drop victimhood and become the warriors we truly are. To get out of the lie, the matrix, we stand in our power and choose what makes us happy. This for me is the great meditation. Be mindful of your thoughts at all times and direct them only to what you desire, not to anything else. In this meditation there is no waiting for a higher source, a message from above. You are the higher source and in your meditation there is only creating. In every moment of the day we choose what makes us happy. 





These were the subjects that most fascinated and inspired me. Please note these are really headings. You need to research the channel yourself if you want further details. Also if there is any quote or information from the channel which is incorrect in my review i do apologise to the producers and ask for a correction or clarification which i would be happy to make.

  1. The fabrication by the Romans of the concept of Jesus and Mary Magdalene, the subsequent compilation of the first Bible, from which evolved the controlled propaganda mind control programme known as Christianity and other religions and all their rites and rituals, the truth about Adam and Eve, Atlantis and Lemuria, The Flood and the destruction of a water planet in our Solar system circa 10500 BC
  2. In the new christian religion, a key departure from indigenous beliefs was that God was now in heaven, not on earth. Earth slowly became associated with sin, deprivation, misery, ‘poor banished children of eve’. Respect for the earth, ‘valley of tears’, nature and our bodies waned leading to untold trauma and schizophrenia
  3. The 3d matrix is a lie within the greater dream of existence. It is maintained by a 12500 year old computer programme whose performance is degrading. The programme beams down on earth an elaborate hologram keeping humans imprisoned in a low frequency, a 3d frequency, principally by the energy of fear. Much of the tragedies we see on our screens are generated by this computer program, are not real and will only stop when we as a race take responsibility for the emotions we feel and stop in every possible moment avoiding fear and face it. This programme is beaming down from a spaceship 400 000 km above the earth. A new story about our moon is revealed which i feel changes the moons astrological status 
  4. Humans feed the governments, feed certain global companies, feed the illum^^^inati, feed the vat^^ican, feed certain secret societies, feed certain et races, feed an alliance between them all and they all feed the humans
  5. The rulers may attempt to restrict the movements of the awakened and starseeds but they cannot control their minds
  6. The pyramids are free energy capacitors built by ets with local help producing electricity in ancient egypt, one of many around the world which provided abundant free energy everywhere. Their primary purpose was as portals
  7. Ancient Egyptian royal families came from Ireland whose druids/shamans originated in Atlantis. 
  8. These last 2 stories suggest that the megalithic sites around Ireland and globally had galactic star connections, were possibly also primarily portals and that this was known for centuries, requiring the doctoring of the official story. This is why archaeology is not a hobby subject we can be entertained by when new findings are exhibited worldwide, but a key tool in the ascension of our planet. If the true origins of our race were to be revealed, as many currently in power already know, the house of cards will come tumbling down. We have come from other planets and we have already at our disposal advanced technologies, including free energy, which immediately means the end of lack and the privileges of the ruling class, the waking up of the masses to the realisation of the abundance that is their heritage. Research is required. But just that info alone wouldn’t work as simple as that because we have been told many times on earth that we are gods and we haven’t listened or got the message. So it has to be a slow revelation as is the case with these Taygetan messages, a slow detailed stream of info allowing it to seep into our bones so that we ourselves, our whole being, rise to the power that we already possess. There is no certainty in these messages that this time we will. Maybe this time. I have no interest in this game any more. I am God creating a new reality based on people and fun and relaxation
  9. The Pop and those in control in the vat^^ican are not catholic they are satanists and worship the black sun, saturn and lucifer. 
  10. The New Age Movement is under scrutiny by the vat^^ican and illum^^^inati, infiltrating starseeds through positive movements. ‘The night is darkest before the dawn’ = ‘The dawning of a new era’ = ‘The dawning of a new world order’. ‘The Light’ is linked to the rituals of the illum^^^inati. The illum^^^inati = The Light = serves to blind.
  11. World  domination network: 1. The vat^^ican finances and controls everything. 2. China is an invasive instrument, a decoy and 3. The Democratic Party is being infiltrated. Trump did not comply, so many of his agents are being assassinated. Storming of the Capitol was a staged event, with protesters dressed up as Trump supporters, DC police agreed to step aside and media cameras conveniently placed to film it all. Trump is aware of who really is trying to control it al
  12. Raiders of the lost arc was true in some respects. However there are 3 arcs all developed by The Taygetans and another race called Karistus to preserve the codes of life on earth if it ever was destroyed. One was placed in Giza, one in Mecca and one on the Taygetan ship. The Giza one was found by the nazis, taken by the US and damaged as they tried to open it, killing many in the process. More deaths occurred in 2015 when the arc in Mecca was handed over to the Russians who now store in a base in Antarctica under Karistus control. So there is one destroyed and 2 remaining. Yazhi describes the arc’s defence mechanism: “It defends itself with a variety of weapons, mostly magnetic and electric. It is all controlled by holographic AI inside. It is a very elaborate machine. It is seen as divine magic. It’s just technology they (humans) cannot understand”
  13. Don’t eat food with faces, sugar and simple carbohydrates, industrialised food and gmos. Although they did later say that they realise some people do need meat. If you can’t pronounce it, don’t eat it. Eggs and diary are tolerable
  14. Sugar and meat clog arteries not cholesterol or fat or calories 
  15. Have fun, be happy
  16. Oil is a renewable resource
  17. As of today 16 Feb 2022, one Taygetan ship is in orbit approx 400km above the earth, approximately 2km long. They have been coming to earth for aeons, but recently they came in 1919 then after WW2 in 1954 for a few years, coming down on earth to speak with several people incl some governments. It’s hard for them to stay more than a week or two because the atmosphere here is 79% nitrogen 29% oxygen whereas in Taygeta it’s the opposite. They came back in 2008 with a large fleet and have been in contact with thousands of people. The vat^^ican are aware of their presence and have made contact through very elaborate undisclosed channels. There is much diplomacy taking place. Working with governments hasn’t work. Governments tried to use them for their knowledge and weren’t interested in anything else. Their strategy since 2016 is to work directly with starseeds
  18. THE REAL CONTROLLER IS US THE HUMANS, THE COLLECTIVE UNCONSCIOUS. This is why the key message is to take responsibility for your life, decide what you want and go get it.
  19. Non real People: 80% A program by the matrix. AI computerised digital mind, they are energy only. Most tragic circumstances are the lot of unreal people, they have no soul, and do not think for themselves

      Real People      : 20% Key people manifesting the Matrix, have only limited suffering, they are Starseeds and have a soul. Some are here for the ride, just to experience life on earth, not for a mission

  1. Watch your thoughts and reactions. Focus on what makes you happy and never on what you don’t want. Develop your own imagination. This is where you design your future and your Life. Imagination is not empty fantasy it is where the whole Universe has come from, it is the blueprint of Creation. FOLLOW YOUR OWN PATH & BE HAPPY
  2. Mars is divided among 3 races, Tall greys, cab^al/Reptiles, Mantis. There are 4 planets in our solar system which our governments do not mention. 
  3. The US army invaded Iraq under the pretense of capturing Saddam Hussein but the main purpose was to seize portals. They are now under the pentagon (i need clarity on this)
  4. Venus is a tropical paradise more suited to Humans than Earth. So the cab^al attacked it in the 60s using portals to transfer soldiers and armoury to a planet of 60million humans like us but at about the military age of ancient Greek. It was slaughter and population depletion and those remaining work now for the cab^al. The vietnam war was a cover for this genocide. Venus must be kept as a secret paradise, the playground of the cab^al. Earth must be kept in low freq
  5. 11:11, 22:22 etc is cultural New Age Info and has no meaning other than what you place on it. No symbol means anything without an external energy giving it an interpretation
  6. There is no climate change, but there is a strategy to implement climate control, with environmental pollution and destruction of ecosystems 
  7. Coastal cities will not be flooded. Temperature rises and falls, fluctuations are a natural phenomenon. CO2 does not cause the greenhouse effect. There is no pole shift. Ice caps are bigger and thicker than before. What comes out of the sun is not harmful. The earth is hollow with large underground cavities the size of continents. The ozone layer is a lie. Andromedans are cleaning up Fukushima pollution and radiation
  8. Some volcanoes, for example in Canaries Sept 19 2021, are artificially created, there is also a date link to volcanoes in Mexico Sept 19 1985 and Sept 19 2019. May be linked to illum^^^inati numerological rituals. The recent fires in Australia and California are also artificially created
  9. Leylines mark the path of internal black goo flow which create a magnetic flux
  10. Oil is not depleting, another lie, oil is self renewable
  11. Reptiles require human biosuits, they cannot go anywhere in the Universe without them (i need clarity on this)
  12. Let the sadness and despair sink into you, let it destroy you and then it will go away 
  13. Earth is an experience for rapid spiritual evolution of soul
  14. For the federation this is like a war game, and they don’t want earth to ascend because they feel it should remain an experience for rapid spiritual evolution of soul and perhaps some elements want the game to continue. Its not clear what their exact motivation is and apparently requires much diplomacy
  15. Organised truckers, that’s the CIA. Where’s the evidence? We don’t need specific data, says Yazhi, this kind of thing is always the CIA. Truckers protest appears in the illum^^^inati card game. They are setting the trucker up to be blamed for the planned food shortages that are on the way!!
  16. Precambrian, Durassic, Iron Age, Bronze Age, RUBBISH! There have been sophisticated races on earth for millions of earth linear years, some for short periods, some long, some local, some interstellar. Dinosaurs? Another Apollo11!
  17. Cave paintings. These are encrypted messages, a race now under attack, finding refuge in caves and sending the message to those who follow: ‘we were here, this is what happened’. Some of the messages were for interstellar races, only they could understand them.
  18. Cloning of humans and animals is taking place in DUMBS, underground labs run by cab^al geneticists and regressive races. They have not managed to alter our DNA but they have managed to isolate the adma, the signal from source to soul, to study it and replicate some of its characteristic, producing clones of animals and humans with ltd power and ltd interactivity; politicians, high profile people, celebrities, military personnel, sex slaves, adults, young people and children all controlled via a chip in the brain from the central AI computer known as ‘The Red Queen’ under Denver Airport via the internet. It is connected to every computerised device in the world: phones, computers, cars, ships, submarines, aircraft, drones with a constant flow of info to and from each. This info is readily available to spy agencies. The red queen works independently of human control, is not empathetic and has no other agenda than total power
  19. In Antarctica there is a German dissident civilization with a high technology DUMB. This is why Antarctica is a restricted zone. It’s all theatre. This DUMB, called Neuschwabenland, is connected to Area 51, S-4, Dougway AFB, Ray Patterson and other places related to Super Secret technology of propulsion material and ships. They are not isolated. Neuschwabenland, is a huge area that comprises an open area without ice kept like this by artificial means and a large 12-level underground complex that includes facilities for ships and nuclear submarines.
  20. Area 51 in Nevada, at the lowest level 7 also has a base for US Navy nuclear submarines, therefore officially is a naval base. Submarines enter through entrances in Santa Monica Bay near Los Angeles
  21. All devices and electronic gadgets of the “Smart” type, such as mobile phones, are also two-way devices that affect and control human reactions by the emission of specific frequencies designed to affect the cerebral cortex. This technology is already being used on a large scale and is transmitted from Güen towers situated mostly in mobile phone towers. This technology has been applied for about 5 years to control human behaviour
  22. Is there a magnetic problem with the Earth’s core because it could change poles and that is why animals are behaving out of control and dying? No. The core is stable, the magnetic disturbance is superficial and artificial caused by so many microwaves. 
  23. It is better to have an 8 cylinder car than a hybrid or electric, since an 8 cylinder causes less environmental damage and less pollution than what it causes to generate the same amount of electricity in plants that burn coal, or highly destructive atomic energy to feed the electric car, causing intensive environmental damage and the destruction of countless ecosystems.   
  24. If star families appeared on earth now, most people would see them as irrelevant. When they come, the theory of evolution is over, and free energy will end the power companies obsolete and abundance will reign. No government wants this. Yazhi feels humans are moving away from this possibility 
  25. Yazhi: “They talk about 25000 year cycles, Mayan Calendar, Kali Yuga, whatever. No, it does not happen every few fixed years, but every time the number of awakened ones exceeds a limit. And that is happening today” Planetary Reset, 3D Matrix – Federation – Human Civilization aug 2020. It is not the changing of the ages but a moment in time when the Federation seeks to control a planet which is at a critical point in its awakening (i need clarity on this).
  26. I liked how they showed that life in 5d doesn’t mean everything flows smoothly, it makes it all seem more real and possibly reveals the limitations and deliberately misleading images of an afterlife being just a floaty heavenly bliss fit only for the purest of the pure, which i feel exists but there are multiple layers of reality in between, trying again to make us fill that we are lesser than, not good enough, sinners and can never reach those heights whilst concealing from us the stepping stones in between
  27. Gosia:”…..all service to others is truly service to self “ Yazhi: “Inescapably so!”

As i said, the Taygetans are more multidimensional in their messages and also their words may have several meanings. There are many ways of understanding any topic, a multitude of answers to any question. There was one video in particular which felt different than all the rest, ‘Joan Manifesto’ , a message from Yazhi. In this video i heard expressions which i never heard Swaruu of Erra saying like:


Set yourself in battle mode, and do it, even if all you can do is save yourself, that is a lot. We are not into Love and Light and giving people false hope’

I later learnt that Yazhi herself is quite warriorlike and also as Minerva said describing Yazhi ‘She fuses the real with the not real, making everything real, for her’  So im taking that into consideration, adding it to the soup if you like, letting it simmer and seeing what it all tastes like. However in other similar videos, I did resonate with


You dont need information. I cant tell you what to do. You know what to do, so do it.

Be responsible, with the best info at your disposal, consider your options, hold high frequency, THEN ACT’ 


Questioning all beliefs that were based on stories ive heard from other, including the Jesus and Mary Magdalene story, The Pleiadians and The Fairies, I asked each one to answer me and hey presto! i opened a can of worms (or is that a can of reptiles!!). These videos have given me fabulous answers and then more, new perspectives on all of life, which i had some awareness of, but few details. Space has definitely been made to allow me to take more responsibility for myself and be more confident in the creator that i am. New stories about the Moon, Venus, Mars, Jupiter, Taygeta, the Federation of United Planets, the cab^al, Clones, the fabricated stories of Climate Change, Religions, Media, Oil Depletion, Free Energy and World History have sat me down to think long and hard about the direction im going in. Its not so much that there are definitive answers in these videos, for as i have said earlier, you are reminded often that there are many answers to each question, many ways to look at all subjects. Its that these messages give me the opportunity to set aside long held beliefs and feel what its like to try something new. The something new feels good, the something new i have already, i am already. The notion of heaven has also been set aside, clouds parting and a voice from on high proclaiming at last the good news, are nowhere in these messages. Instead there is very clear detailed information via texting on the internet.

Since i began watching these videos, there is a shift in my perception in the following areas of life: 

Jesus: I have set the concept of Jesus and Mary Magdalene aside. It has belonged in a book praised by many as the greatest story ever told but now it is seen as one of the greatest lies ever told. As i have said, this concept has been a strong influence in my life, and though i left the roman catholic church 30 years ago i still felt a very dear connection to Jesus, praying to him each morning asking him for all the strength, wisdom and love i need to embody my divinity. Now i simply dont ask, i know i am the Divine, i am source, i have all the strength, wisdom and love i need. The Roman Catholic Church has as one of its pillars of truth the idea that you must go thru Jesus or Mother Mary or whoever to get to God. There must be an intermediary, because you are not good enough, you’re lesser than, you’re a sinner and you need someone who is pure, ‘without blemish’ to ‘save’ you. This idea, this mind control concept of the saviour is explored very well in the videos on Jesus. Though i felt i had left that idea behind, tears fell as i realised i had not. The idea was etched into my psyche. I was told i was a sinner and i needed to be saved and Jesus was the guy. He was like a nice teacher who was a stickler for the rules. There was a figure of Jesus in my childhood kitchen, with a bleeding heart wrapped with thorns and crowned with a burning cross. I always felt he was watching me. I would go to one side of the kitchen and then the other and his eyes seemed to follow me. This was scary especially at night when all was dark, the little perpetual red light, the only light in the room, was straight out of a horror movie. Though i left the church i still carried Jesus with me into the New Age where it seemed he found a new audience with a similar eagerness for a saviour, truth, belonging, god, as the first. The idea, instilled in me from the womb and fine tuned to the vibration of millenia of false doctrine, has held our ascension back more than another, says some Taygetans. And so i need to give my body space to rehabilitate. I feel brainwashing and mind control. At first it was disorienting, wondering could all this be true, now, I feel more empowered, more spacious, more relaxed and grateful for all those who have helped me through this psychosis

Because I have set the concept of Jesus aside, it gives me the space to revisit many of the messages associated with his name and see if, as stand alone teachings, there is something i can resonate with

  1. “Turn the other cheek”, has held me back from a more forward response to certain situations
  2. “Respect your Father and your Mother”, is open to wide interpretation
  3. ”Then he took a piece of bread, gave thanks to God, broke it, and gave it to them, saying, “This is my body, which is given for you. Do this in memory of me.” In the same way, he gave them the cup after the supper, saying, “This cup is God’s new covenant sealed with my blood, which is poured out for you “ Could be a cover for blood sacrifice rituals of another religion, this needs more research to be verified
  4. “Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”. Potentially a story to get everyone to blindly accept what they’re told
  5. “Now I tell you that whoever divorces his wife, except for sexual immorality, and marries another woman, commits adultery.” Another time bomb
  6. Jesus said to them, “Truly I tell you, in the renewal of all things, when the Son of Man sits on His glorious throne, you who have followed Me will also sit on twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for the sake of My name will receive a hundredfold and will inherit eternal life. But many who are first will be last, and the last will be first ” Possibly a means to get rich people to give their wealth to the church. Personally there is a slight tendency to downplay riches and treasures
  7. “Give back to Caesar what is Caesar’s and to God what is God’s” Propaganda to get people to pay their taxes, which at that time in Palestine was one of the main causes of strife. Today that still influences me to be a ‘good’ citizen

As i have been formally acknowledging the concept of Jesus for many years, I will be making a decision about how to formally acknowledge these new perspectives, these new energies that are now sinking into my bones

Ancient Truths: However it is important to say that the roots of many stories in the bible have deeper more empowering roots. The controllers have taken ancient truths than can inspire people to live as gods and twisted them so that people actually live as slaves. These ancient truths now need to be revisited which is something that these videos also have begun to do

The Pleiadians: Back to morning prayers again. Next i would make a similar request to my Pleiadian friends. At a very low point in my life in 2018, there was desperation to find answers to where i would live and what i would do to make money. A facebook post recommended asking the Pleiadians. Whether out of fear or a genuine intuitive connection, perhaps a bit of both, im not sure, but i felt their presence and i got a relatively clear answer. Their names were Michael, Sarah, Penelope, Peter, James, Thomas, Timothy, Patrick and Adrian, a very suspiciously biblical lineup. I continued to intuitively connect with them until a few weeks ago when i began to question my contact. Now, i still feel that they are there and also that they are me, a manifestation of my imagination, perhaps details like names need revision. Maybe they are Taygetans or Karistus. I have asked them to make it clear to me where they are from, if ive got their names right, if the message i received from them 3 years ago was real and if they are in actual fact the Angels i refer to in the next section. I feel they responded and whilst i didnt perceive an answer to all my questions, they gave the thumbs up to all im doing, encouraging me to keep it up

Guardian Angels: First greeting each morning was to my Guardian Angel friends My Lu Lee, My Lee Lieux. First intuitive contact with them was in 1995 at a time when i was relatively comfortable and not looking for any spiritual guidance or ‘saving’. I had become disillusioned with the church and was in a relatively very free space, no ties to any practice, modality or belief system. A time of curiosity. I remember the moment when i intuitively perceived them. I was cycling over a pedestrian hump backed bridge on the grand canal near Maynooth in Ireland. Unsure of what i was picking up, this had never happened before, at least that’s what i thought, the connection felt very real, the names were very clear. Slowly over many years immersing myself in many new age practices, their presence began to mean something to me. I called them my guardian angels, probably more church influence still lingering there. I grew up with a strong belief that our guardian angels are here to protect us. Now, after listening to the Taygetans, there is a new perspective here too. Once again I feel that they too are me. We are more like long lost friends getting to know one another in a new way. I would ask my Angels, my ‘Higher Self’ for everything from helping me to find the simplest of things to tackling the most complex of life’s questions. Again the change is very subtle, but big, because instead of seeing them as ‘Higher’, a popular new age concept which is true from a lower frequency perspective, i now see them as me, on the same level, wearing the same pants. My morning greeting today goes something like “Good morning everyone, Good morning everything, Good morning all, Good morning my multidimensional me, including My Lee Lieux My Lu Lee”. They are a means by which i can realign when i stray and return to my divine power again, and all such assistance is very gratefully received. I’m fascinated to see where this connection goes. For now the relationship feels lighter, more co creative and fun

The Father: Another big icon, god the father. Its amazing how i may have laughed at how god, the man above is portrayed in countless comedy sketches, yet i still held a belief in his legitimacy, in his defining role in my life, the world and the universe, a connection deep in the very core of my psyche and that of the collective subconscious. Just like in the case of Jesus, i may have left the church but i never left their god, their concept of god. And whilst this concept was prayed to and sung to as i was doing up to 4 weeks ago, i was returning to conditioning begun at conception and probably in other timelines too saying, i am lesser, god is my creator, i need him. I have said countless times, so often it brings me to tears and questions my sanity, i have said that all i need is within, i am love, this is it, this is perfection. And yet there was this big guy in the sky. Of course a lot of the descriptions were erroneous, we don’t know who he is, if its a he or a she or a they or a blob, a puff of air, a nothingness from which all comes and into which all returns in this moment, in all moments. These reasons were aligned with many of the new age beliefs i was immersing myself in, and in that sense they satisfied my questions. But the concept of an almighty god, the one god, remained, even if it is a nothingness, it was still larger, bigger, mightier than I. I was secondary, lesser than. And this differentiation is the core mind control. Just as many people feel today, just as many of our ancestors have known and all our loved ones in the future will know, there is no one mightier than, we are all holographic fragments of the whole, with all share the attributes of the whole. We are not just part of the whole. We are the whole. You are source. I am god. This lie is so rooted in our beings, we need to dig deep, deeper than the lie and find there the seed of change that shows the world that indeed there has always been truth and power and love, we have simply forgotten and chosen another path. The question is, will you choose again to remember the essence of your truth, your power and your love.

Heaven: Another concept which has been introduced to me in the womb, probably in other timelines too. I respond to it now like i have to the concepts of Jesus and God. The videos about the extraterrestrial races were fascinating. There’s millions upon billions of them more than likely but here in these videos they talk about just a few. I felt i was being shown around heaven. Knowing that heaven is to be felt and witnessed in many planets all over the universe including our own solar system allows me to be even more confident that we can create this heaven on earth too

Waiting: Again i wish to reiterate the context of my words. A life lived searching, in spiritual communities, groups, retreats, books, practices a plenty, some still active, living in prisons of school, society, cultural norms, religion, lack and obligations, i have left it all and i relax. There was always something i wanted, and there still is. But in my desire, sex been a big one, i never saw my own beauty, my own divinty. The mind control is so subtle, there are chasms between the concept of a higher God and being a holographic fragment of the whole. Its no wonder i have woken up most mornings feeling there’s something missing, waiting for a sign, a lover, a revelation to make sense of it all, to fulfil my desires. I have seen my Divinity for many years, but then i get distracted by a new angle that brings to the surface deeper attachments. And thats all fine. Now sinking to the depths and heights of my true self i say I am god and when i find myself waiting for something or someone i will respond with clarity. Waiting is a vibration similar to what some may call a demonic vibration, because both simply attempt to distract you away from or suppress your divinity. So that is why it is so important now in these times of energetic transformation, when the stakes are high, to watch your thoughts, not just in meditation or silent times, but all the times. Watch what you say and think and do and feel. Choose always to place your attention on what you desire and be compassionate with yourself when you stray or resist. Be mindful at all times, your each moment is a meditation and in this meditation there is no waiting. 

Who am I: Here too there is a shift, a subtle shift, its big, not just big, seismic and so i’m inspired to acknowledge once again that I AM THE ONE. As the days go by, i continue to unravel the chains that tie me to an intermediary, someone always higher than you, the false sense of security, thinking someone else is taking care of things, saying to oneself in some part of your mind, ‘how could i ever think i could do all this on my own’. There is that sense that someone in the end will come to you and lift you up. Again i say, it’s very subtle. If this is truly the case, its very clever, devious mind control that has been in place for millennia in the world of christians, the new age movement and all round the globe. I have always felt a connection to source, but there was lots of fog there, was i source or connected to source or just a part of source or perhaps an empty vessel through which source could pour thru me. That ‘vessel’ idea was huge in my journey, another idea similar in its effect to the need for an intermediary to access God, ‘make me a channel for your peace’. There are people who channel different higher dimensions that have a real contribution in the collective ascension of our planet. The concept of ‘empty vessel’ is however not the same and maybe used to create confusion. There is the notion in the roman catholic church that ‘an empty vessel’ is one that realises that it can do nothing on its own and relies on god to show us the way. I don’t have a connection to source. I am not ‘an empty vessel’…. I AM SOURCE  ‘…the idea that you are limited is the only thing that is limiting you, because you can create anything because you already have. You are source. You are not even part of source as many on Earth say. You are it. Even the other real people are just yourself in a mirror’  Swaruu of Erra in the video ‘Not Real People: Extraterrestrial Message from Pleiades (Taygeta)’ Oct 2018.

Commitment: As the need for an intermediary has consistently followed me since childhood i now commit to consistently choosing the reality i dream of, the reality that says I AM GOD, from now on there is no ‘middle man’ ‘There are no victims here, we have already tired of saying it. So that’s why we always say the world is as it should be. We cannot fix the world because it is not ours to fix. It is theirs, the humans. We can only be mentors, for those who listen. But in the end that world is not only the creation of humans, it is the humans themselves. They ARE that. There is no use taking them to another place, to another planet. Because they take the problems with them, because they are the problems….There are no reptiles other than those created by humans themselves. No one is their predator. They depredate themselves and I mean personally. Each one of them. They walk through the rainy streets with broken shoes … Resentful of the rich man with his new “latest model” white truck that drives through a puddle and bathes them. Miserable they feel. Being gods’ Swaruu D’Jedi Ronin in the video ‘Reptiles – Oppressors of Humanity?’

Self serving: So many words have been laced with meaning, have been twisted to distract and suppress the truth of who we really are. The word ‘self serving’ has negative connotations. Now i see the power in this word. To be of service to others you must first be of service to yourself, ie self serving. “Thinking in a mode of service to others does not work on Earth as it is at this time, since those who are at the service of others, as they are called in the New Age, will only make themselves slaves of opportunists who call themselves spiritual guides, or at least you will end up over-giving to everyone around you without a balance of having your own needs met. It is not as simple as simply living at the service of others, but maintaining a balance between your own needs and starting from that as a base…. from there to help others. So know thyself. And as I said: “With great power comes great responsibility.” And if you hold some power then you must use it.”  Yazhi, Starseeds – What should we DO and how should we BE now? 

Think for myself: Now as i look out at the world and particularly those close to me, i can feel the myriad of vibrations they all carry. It is a very steadying influence in these challenging changing times, to be able to hone in on what is really important every time i interact with them and that is, are they thinking for themselves. The most important info to give people is ‘…..what frees the mind to stop relying on all kinds of authorities and experts and to develop the ability to take responsibility to think for themselves’ Athena ‘Taygetans Why are we here – Update’  Feb 2022. This ability is what authority figures including schools and governments have suppressed for hundreds and thousands of years. There’s no ‘spiritual’ speak here. Yes it’s emanating from the galaxy but it’s very down to earth. I’ve always known this, but what’s revealed in these videos is the extent of the control and it really does call us to wake up and assist others to wake up in whatever way we can to how precious it is to be ourselves, and to think for ourselves, ourselves alone 

Fairies: I have a ringfort on my property. This is where they say the fairies live and many people have sensed their vibration. For 22 years now, i have chatted with them, ask them for permission to enter, looked for their guidance, but i have never seen them or have never had the same vivid experience i see some visitors having. So i questioned my connection with them, is it just because i feel its the cool thing to be able to do, or am i actually speaking with them. Now there seems to be a respectful distance, a time to readjust and just lets see what happens

Meditation and the tiny voice inside: All my life i have lauded the benefits of meditation, space to allow myself to align with the divine and hear the ‘tiny voice inside’. There’s another subtle shift here too, subtle but big, it has been happening for a number of years. The tiny voice inside is me, shrouded in a fog of distractions, false gods and suppression, i couldn’t make it out clearly. It’s not tiny at all, its magnificent. Today i feel, thanks in part to the expansive vibrations running thru these messages, that we must all find our own way of connecting to this magnificence and we need to be so very selective because there are many who claim outcomes that will never transpire, many who claim gifts they don’t possess. For me, yes i will continue to meditate, but now more than ever, i meditate my way. And because of all the guidance and influence of others down thru all these years, i need now to really set all that aside and let me guide me and watch what i say and think and do and feel. I choose to place my attention on what i truly honestly desire, my wildest dreams and to be compassionate with myself when i stray or resist. My each moment is a meditation and in this meditation there is no waiting there’s is only creating and this suits me down to get ground

Love and Light:  This was a greeting i have used a lot in the past. I have set it aside now. The love part is wonderful, but the light attaches to the vibration of the illum^^^inati and control and suppression, ties and bonds which i now cut

Let go: This was a phrase i have always had difficulty with. On my spiritual journey it was a common catchphrase used by many teachers, part of many prayers, wishes and requests. But i have been slow to adopt it. At one stage i used to say ‘let go of what? is everything not supposed to be perfect just the way it is’. As the Taygetans might say there are many ways to look at an issue. So revisiting ‘Let go’, i feel there are attachments remaining in the body i call Fionntáin, and i have a choice in this density i find myself in to focus on these attachments and clear them, watch them go, ‘let them go’…or is there another way. Well i feel there is. The game changer, or perhaps more accurately the treasure revealer, for me is to put my focus FIRST on the treasure. Again the shift is subtle but seismic. If while luxuriating in your treasure, demons arise, then i will face them with all the strength and power of my divine presence and respond as necessary, speak to them, be with them, sit with them, tell them what to do, whatever is required in that moment, but and this is the key, always coming from my place of bliss. Choose to feel good at all times even if dense emotions come to call. This is what i feel it takes to transform and this is possible, because i am experiencing this. And when you are coming from the place of your bliss there is nothing to let go of. Of course if you are holding on tight to your rowing boat paddle, you have to ‘let go’ if you want to swim.

Thoughts: Another word that has got bad press in spiritual circles and which i feel is redeemed in these messages. For me i do not need to clear my mind of thoughts. I acknowledge my thoughts, allow my thoughts to arise and organise them. This is a perspective you may find helpful. If in meditation you are clearing your mind of thought, then thoughts are given a secondary place in your world. You are attempting to visit places of purity, bliss and ecstasy free from the unnecessary chatter of the mind, the distractions that can never amount to anything. This way of relating to thoughts works for those who have renounced many of the worlds comforts, live in monasteries, who follow set doctrines not requiring exploration only adherence from people whose shelter and food is provided by others. Most of us don’t live like that, it’s not the path we have chosen. If you acknowledge that you are already the Divine, you have already attained all the ecstasy and love you desire because this is who you are, then thoughts have a different meaning. Thoughts become a signal for the way you are progressing on your journey home to yourself. Bringing thoughts out into the open is unlocking the depths of your subconscious, your ancestral collective subconscious and as such you are embarking on an epic voyage. You are facing the multilayered lie that has seeped into every area of your life beginning with the concept that you are a separate individual and including the whole range of assumptions that go to make the matrix that most of us call life. And you are responding to this with strength, wisdom and love. You are alone with the vast array of conflicting and confusing information that makes up this matrix and keeps us enslaved. You are a warrior for truth, your truth, using all the swords at your disposal to clear a path through the thick that allows you to make sense of it all.  The concepts of truth which is never ‘the truth’, but your truth, can only be seen when thoughts are tamed, sifted through and organised into in and out boxes. The essence of our bliss can not be felt until then. Our thoughts formulate our choices, craft our Kingdom, reveal our desires, inspire our thoughts, formulate our choices, craft our kingdom…. This is my journey now and my body is acclimatising as i go


It has been at times like watching Star Trek again with all the weird creatures that earthlings encountered in that TV series and, when seen from a certain perspective, the video series is very entertaining. Gosia does present them very well. From another perspective, if all this is true for you, it builds the foundation on which a new history of our world and universe can be built. From yet another perspective, it matters not if the cab^al invaded Venus or if the moon is really a repurposed spherical spaceship disguised as a moon, because these are just more stories which we are now receiving from wherever it matters neither. What matters, what always matters and what always will, is how each one of us perceives them, interprets them, how we decode them with our unique frequency, take responsibility for what we are receiving, just as we take responsibility for all messages and experiences and people we encounter throughout our lives, acknowledge them, allow them, love them and in the end, the culmination of all and everything, the jewel in the crown of our majestic being, we come to our own personal conclusions and stand by them. If there is a fight, you are fighting yourself, you are resisting your own power, if you are acknowledging your resistance, then you have an opportunity to realise how it is all just a program and how you can change the program, you are responding to the resistance with as much energy as the program that created the resistance, you are standing tall with the conclusions that you personally arrived at, caring for them, guarding them, following through on them, being true to them no matter what.

Yes the ascension is happening, but it is not clear what course it’s going to take and that all depends on us Humans, and no one else. In order to better orient my unique frequency with ascension, these messages have flung the curtains back, opened the windows wide and let in fresh air that dispel the myths of ‘jesus’, and ‘mother mary’ and all the intermediaries to ‘god’ that lives in some sort of ‘heaven’. I have been made more aware of the complex vibrations associated with words like service, love, light, community, friendship, angels and more and whenever i am in service to myself and the world that i am, i maintain this awareness. The controllers have infiltrated all strands of society incl the New Age in which i have immersed myself deeply for so long. For now I will continue my connections very selectively with new insight. These messages have copper fastened the idea attributed by some to Einstein, that if there is a problem its thinking that makes it so. There are no problems in my world, in my Universe. I am standing tall like never before, me myself i, my smile, my strength, my honesty, my breath, my sound, my movement, my creativity and this is all i need. All you need is love, it was said. I say, all you need is you. I AM THE ONE. From this core creativity flows.

Is it all true? 

How much does that matter? At the end of the day, the bottom line is i’m the one in charge, i’m creating my reality. Whats true for you, may not necessarily be true for another. So i decide what’s true for me or not true. These videos have helped to release many of my ‘god’ given talents from the clutches of tyrannical forces and so i’m happy to say they are overall true for me until i say otherwise. I say no to my victimisation and yes to my glorification

I am grateful for all the resources, messages and people that are assisting my creation. Thank you Gosia, your team at Cosmic Agency and all the Taygetans in orbit around earth for these powerful words. I look forward to reading more messages from our cosmic friends. Thank you youtube and the internet and all the devices that make this communication possible. Sending lots of fun and relaxation to our Earth, our Galaxy and to our Universe 

This is it

Je suis complet pour l’instant

Gracias Dziękuję Kiitos

Thank you for reading

Sending you lots of fun and relaxation 🙂

Fionntáin Lios Fearnáin Ireland 22 Feb 2022 

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P.S. This is never the end. Its just the beginning of something else. All these stories are my stories. I created them. Now relax, you’ve done a fabulous job, have a break!! Yippee!!!!!!!!!!!! Allow yourself to rest, no obligations to anyone and i mean anyone ever again, other than you and from that space, o creator that i adore, see what happens 🙂

Jesus is dead

Apparently he never lived

I am god. 

How do you fathom an icon like Maria

Maria was Isis, the lie is revealed

I am god.

Who are my guardian angels, if i ever had any at all

There’s spirit guides on Jupiter, life forms on Mars 

I am god.

There are no intermediaries between us and our God

God is indivisible

I am god.

At times i get distracted by lies floating in a dream of my creation

That’s how absolutely fabulous i am

I am God.

Stay strong dear Fionntáin, oil the engines of your mind and no one else’s

So that it flows in rhythm with your wide open lustful loving heart

I am god.

For the saboteur at night will throw a spanner in the works 

if you ever choose to fall asleep again

I am god, therefore i am anything i want to be, now, so be it

Full Moon and Sun Revelation

A Reading from a Book of Full Moon & Sun Revelations
Chapter One of One

We Are powerful beyond our imaginations. We have co created our Earth, the Universe and our bodies and personalities. We have over time increasingly identified solely with our bodies and personalities and woke up one morning, as if from a coma, to find we are a drift on a boat on rocky seas with no one at the wheel. In shock, not consciously aware of what happened, we desperately sought safety and certainty. The more we continued to identify with just our bodies and our personalities the more the shock, the trauma increased. Fear has become a default response all over the world. Fear that we are not taken care of, fear that we will not have enough resources to survive. Having forgotten, it is only natural that we will create structures to protect ourselves, defend and hold onto the little we have. We protect ourselves by hiding our true identities, hiding from ourselves and hiding from others especially those closest to us. We have become skilled at avoiding the truth of our core essence with trickery, deception and masquerade

And yet it is all fine, all part of the Divine unfolding that you have co created. The life you are living is no accident or cruel twist of fate, it has nothing to do with being wrong, not good enough or having sinned and doing penance. It is a magnificent manifestation of the wonderful Being You truly are. The real Trickery, with a capital ‘T’, is to allow yourself to feel the Love that You truly are whilst at the same time feeling the fear if it ever arises again and show it who You truly are, Love.

In the land and on the oceans where you are true to the Love You Are and thus loving all that arises, all the fear will simply fall away when its ready and all the masks will disappear

With Love and Light 🙂



In this dimension, in every moment there is change. You are not the same person as you were when you started reading this. And so this is the case here in my forest and on my land, change, everyday is different. The summer opens up to something new. Volunteers are returning and work continues on the dance pavilion. The following is a summary of the work done in the last 12 months

Vegetable garden begun

New paths and earthen steps in the ‘Tulal’ (Trails of Unconditional Love and Light), 
New foot bridges over the stream called ‘Breams’, 
Blackberry Cabin being remodeled, 
The pond cleaned and dedicated to the Divine Feminine on Imbolc Feb1 last, 
The ‘Eagle’ (a new mobile home) being renovated, 
The ‘Nest’, a forest meditation/seating area, created
More artwork celebrating the forests natural abundance 

Timber harvesting

The well is being upgraded and landscaped
Solar shower piping installed
Our First Fairy House completed and another is on the way 
Twig borders created on the driveway 

A word of thanks to the very international troupe of over 40 volunteers, since summer 2019, without whom I could not have achieved so much and who may be interested to know that the porridge I make for breakfast is now called ‘Romscci’ and the post box is called Beatrix! I have gotten used to walking around with a dream in my heart. Now that dream is becoming a reality and in order for it to continue to manifest i need to assist my body to adjust. And so its really exciting for me to announce that the proposed dance pavilion received its first stack of structural timber poles and we began digging foundations this week

In this regard, i send a call out for a carpenter to join my team of volunteers to help erect the 24 timber posts for the dance pavilion

Setting out bridge and dance pavilion 

My joy is to sing, to sing live and online for the wellbeing of all, yet at this time, the Universe and i have ordained that i spend most of my time this year working on all the above projects. As a result my facebook live transmissions, Songs from the Angels, have taken a back seat for some months now and that will be the case for the foreseeable future until a new performance space is completed or the Universe brings me something even greater than this. Looking forward to completing my new space and performing again. This time away from performance is indeed a great reminder to me that as much as i long to sing and dance and record, I Am in every moment of the day, no matter where I Am or what I Am doing, the Song, I Am the Music, I Am the Dance. We Are the Music. We Are the Song. We Are the Dance 

It is such a joy to become more and more acquainted with my neighbours, the robins. They used to live under my home but seem to have taken up residence under my new mobile home, the ‘Eagle’ as i call it. Yet they still follow me around at times, delighted to see me and know me, they sing to me and I in bliss and awe and in delight too sing in reply. What joy! I’ve named the shed after them!  

We all have been on different journeys through this dimension. We’ve been through a lot and we have done very well, fabulously in fact, and we are continuing to do so well. Our guardian angels are also doing a stellar job guiding us along the way. Simply living on this planet is a great sign of how powerful we all are. We are miraculous. 

We are all experiencing change. There is much uncertainty in our world, but we know that the Light is always present and it is on the Light that we wish to focus and in the Light we naturally reside and so it is that in this moment when we go within, and many of us these days are offered the time to do that, within we feel all the fear that may still present itself, looking for our attention, pulling on our trouser legs, pushing us and nagging us. When we turn to it, feel it, speak with it like the abandoned child that it is, there is no uncertainty about what needs to be done, for there in that meeting of opposites, the Light and the Dark, the happy and the sad, we acknowledge the pain we are tuning into, the pain that imprisons the collective subconscious, we know in our hearts that the only answer is to Love that pain, that child, and in that Love we remember who we really are and our bodies begin to relax, we heal the pain within ourselves and in so doing we play our part in healing the pain that still remains in the whole world. For more on this subject here is an article i wrote recently called: 


I am looking forward to completing all the practical work here and getting back to my music. You are welcome to support my work by applying for a volunteer position here, a carpenter is especially required or by making a donation


Dear Divine Being, who is living life to the full in Love on earth, may your body be blessed with unending fun and relaxation and it is so
Until next time, Love and Light


Responding to our world in these changing times PART 2

Love is the only response


Seeking the love of another is truly a beautiful courageous act. A yearning for union. A longing to feel again the love of Mother and Father, our truly united Divine Mother and Father together as one in bliss, a union we apparently have forgotten, save for a tiny thin thread, an unraveling ball trailing behind us in a dark dank dense forest. The ultimate yearning, the pinnacle of all craving, a constant craving, is perhaps the result of the greatest trick of them all, hey presto, that very union we crave, is who we truly are already, we are the union of all men and women in one, of every person you have ever been attracted to and more, beyond imagination. We have been longing for our own selves all along, ta daa!!! Stand up and take a bow! So desperately funny, it would ‘drive one to drink’, to delirious delirium and all sorts of distraction. And so it has. Yet we are the magicians. The next part of our trick, is to find our way back and in our world today everything that is arising, despite appearances, is helping us to do just that, after all, don’t they say it’s an illusion!!!

The World is waking up from a deep delirious trance and rising to a Love like we have never felt before. In order to allow our bodies to integrate this transformation we must give them all the rest, good food and exercise they require. We are experiencing profound shifts of consciousness. All is well. Stay the course

In the main, our parents have not experienced their true Divine Selves and so could only ever have known a limited union of opposites, just like their parents and grandparents and parents through many generations. We are riding the waves of the inevitable unease endemic in this subconscious collective amnesia 

To go deeper into this, we have forgotten how to gaze upon the essence of our beauty, it is not that we can’t, we simply have forgotten. Lost, wandering and seemingly abandoned by life, we cower in fear, seeking shelter. But life doesn’t stop unfolding because of our trauma. It keeps creating and giving, rising and falling like the sun each day, the cycles that sustain the Universe. As we wander, lost, wanting, craving, all the beauty of Mother Earth arises before us, the sun, the Light, the moon, the Dark, the trees, the plants, the birds and the bees. The morning chorus inspires us and for a moment we remember where we have come from. We move towards this beauty, seek to be in this beauty, want more of this beauty. And then before us appears one who looks like us, who talks like us, walks like us. And this, wow this is something else, the attraction is undeniable, and the feelings inside, blowing your mind like nothing you have felt before in this life, losing your mind in a controlled frenzy. And you want more of this, you, who are still wandering and wanting and craving your true home that you have forgotten, you are now so enamoured by the beauty you see in this other person, you fall in Love with them. Fall in Love? There is no such a thing, for in Love is where we already are, we are born like this. Love is who we are. As we become acquainted with our new friend, we grow closer and open our hearts like the Loving Beings that we are. We share our lives together. Then we begin to realise that they are looking for the same thing as us. So we must begin to defend the little we have, for we have also forgotten how abundant we are. Tensions arise. We are now under attack, wondering where it all went ‘wrong’. Once again we must seek shelter, a place of safety. Typically this means we leave the relationship or we compromise. And more relationships follow, relationships with all sorts of beauty such as work, substances, sobriety, impropriety, creativity, lethargy, people, solitude, travel and so forth, one after the other. The search continues. And we build up in our minds eye, the qualities of the person we would like to meet, i would like him to talk like this, i would like her to walk like this, i would like them to act like this. An image appears before us, one which we now begin to define others by, grade them by, scan them with when first we meet, she’s right for me, he’s wrong for me, they might do, they won’t do. An image that we now carry around everywhere, be it surfing the net or walking on a sunset beach, those images are always present. Oh sweet dream, sweet perfection, sweet beauty, my precious one, come to me! And they don’t appear, and we wonder why, have we done something wrong, are we lacking in some way. Guilt and frustration and loneliness become our bedfellows, nagging away at us, tossing and turning in our sleep.  But we are so powerful, so relentless, so imaginative, creative and resourceful and we don’t give up easily. The image of beauty we seek has become our golden calf. We, lost and abandoned by our parents, now adore and honour in each moment of our day the golden calf of our imagination. Priests and Priestesses we are of our own self made Gods and Goddesses. We build temples for our precious creations, protect them in glass shrines, suspended before us like carrots before a horse. We long to speak with them, but they cannot hear us. We long to touch them, but we cannot reach them. Yet we continue to worship them, so fixated have we become. The whole globe appears to many to be spinning to the hum of self made Gods and Goddesses. We walk with them as they sway before us and slowly fall into their rhythm. Swinging left and right before our eyes, tantalising, teasing us, driving us crazy, a frenzy driving us into desperation. We fall into a stupor, a stupor into a trance, a trance into despair, that emerges as delirious thoughts, words and deeds attempting to make sense of it all and look normal. 

From this cauldron of extreme, comes the inspiration for so much of our popular music, art and entertainment, dangling the golden calf of our impossible dream before our eyes. Upon this foundation we create our society and govern our people, establishing rules and regulations that rarely if ever mention Love. National institutions, so wound up, so deep in a trance, so lost and bewildered that they must adopt extraordinary measures to convince its people that their policies are balanced, true, normal and for the good of all. The world, save for a few rare people, is living in a trance or slowly emerging from a trance. So delirious have we become that it calls forth so much Love and Compassion from deep within the wells of our lost hearts. As we journey now confident in our true Divine Nature, how else do we respond when we meet a lost abandoned neglected brother or sister on our path. Love is the only response to all who we meet and greet during our day in person, on line, on paper, in sound. The world is gone mad craving Love and we Light Beings from Heaven who feel the craving deep in our gut, who have spent the time loving the craving and have made friends with it, will respond and share all the Love we have brought forth from within with a world that has simply forgotten how to. Indeed we are already sharing this Love. This message is a message of Love. 

We all deserve Love. Our families deserve Love. Our friends deserve Love. Our communities deserve Love. Our governments and international organisations deserve love. Even though we have experienced such trauma, therein lies perhaps the greatest beauty, the greatest Love of all. Even from the pits of our collective trauma, when given the space, when shown the truth, when introduced to the Light of our soul, we can still remember how fabulous we are. If we offer our Love and it is not accepted, what to do then is a story for another time. In short, the main thing is that our Love has been offered as clearly and unequivocally as our bodies are able to in that moment 

My service to the world is to show others the Light that they truly are, so that the world will emerge from the collective delirium we have immersed ourselves in. And let us remember, that it is each one of us who are the magicians, the alchemists of this transformation. We together are co creating the journey into and out of delirium. There are no victims here. We are perfect, each one of us without exception. No matter what we have said, done or thought in the past, none of it defines us. We are always a perfect manifestation of the Divine. 

There is more i would like to share some other time, perhaps to answer any questions you may have, perhaps to share a program that has arisen out of these insights. Sharing through word, song or dance, this is my joy. For now my dear friends it is time to rest. The delirium is still unraveling within and without. The waves of energy in our world appear to some to be more extreme than ever before. It may feel very rocky out there in the land of the golden calf. But inside where your true beauty dwells all is calm and weaving in and out, swaying left and right, flowing and swirling as it wishes, in a blissful dance. Trust my friends in the beauty that you are and that is always guiding you. You can speak with it, listen to it, feel it, touch it. It is not encased in glass, locked away in a shrine. It is who you truly are. Rest in the wonder of your beauty now my friends. In responding to the world around us, some will feel called to serve in aloneness, some to serve at home, some to serve in our communities, some to serve nationally and internationally, some to serve cosmically and so forth. Wherever your intuition, your true Divine Self guides you, first you must feel this true Divine presence within, make friends with your emotions, realise the delirium we have immersed ourselves in and therefore afford ourselves the Love and Compassion we deserve, afford our bodies the space we deserve at last to rest in joy and happiness. Our journey has been long. We are weary. For weariness is what we have co created. Now we are co creating relaxation and fun. Rest my friends. Here, take a seat……. here, lie down, place your head on this pillow….. relax your body and Breathe.

I wish to acknowledge all the Guides who have supported these realisations and helped the creation of this portal to a New Earth. Specifically i would like to thank Matt Kahn whose energy has pointed me within to the Divine I Am. Also i would like to thank all the intimate relationships that i have experienced and that have aroused my body, mind and spirit to see who I really Am. Thank you covid19, these insights have been fine tuned in the extended periods of alone time i have experienced because of restrictions associated with your presence. As Matt would say ‘everything is here to help us’. And finally, i would like to thank you for reading.

Until we meet again and some day we will meet again, for we are all in this game together, may you and the whole world be blessed with Love and Light, with unending fun and relaxation and it is already so 🙂 Alleluia!!  

FOR PART 1 click here https://fionntain.com/2021/05/23/responding-to-our-world-in-these-changing-times/

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P. S. I seek the services of a carpenter to join my team of volunteers to erect a timber dance pavilion, which will be a central feature here in my forest, my dream of Divine Consciousness, from which I will share music and dance with the world, as part of my contribution to the manifestation of Heaven on Earth. 🙂


How we respond to the World around us can only be a reflection of how we respond to the World within us 

Sovereignty is our essence. We are born Sovereign Beings. No nation can confer Sovereignty on itself. A Nation is only as Sovereign as its citizens have realised, honoured and celebrated their own innate Divine Sovereignty.  

On the morning of the 4th of May last, in that zone of revelation between sleeping and waking, I felt strong emotions arising in my body, a fear of the future and a deep desire for sexual union. How are these emotions related, how are they relevant to the subject, what do these emotions and any emotion have to teach us. How can emotions guide your response to the many questions facing our World at this time? This message wishes to reveal how facing our emotions, feeling our emotions and loving our emotions is a radical commitment creating a portal to a New Earth 

Emotions do not define you, but our bodies have grown accustomed to feeling that emotions are energies which represent a part of our character ‘for better or for worse’. When things are worse, we feel we are responsible in some way, perhaps we have sinned and we must do penance, issues have arisen that we must deal with, avoid them, scold them, try to get rid of them, reject them, get angry and frustrated because of them, satisfy them and so on, all the various ways we have been trained subconsciously to deal with life’s ‘problems’. My journey has constantly reminded me that emotions are not me. I Am here simply to Love the emotions as the Sovereign Divine Being I truly Am

Along with most of our brothers and sisters across the globe, we here in Ireland on a political level, are now subject to guidelines and regulations that mainly come from international organisations. Most of us have become used to taking orders from authority, parents, teachers, management, church leaders, and national governments. We are rarely ever introduced to the Sovereignty of our Souls. Giving our power away is so ingrained in us we don’t realise it. The governments that we elect will therefore also reflect this powerlessness and in turn, when faced with international issues, will respond by giving their power away to the bigger more authoritative looking and sounding international institution. It is the inevitable result of the way we have been brought up. With much of the world’s economy having been locked down for so long, world debt, which was already quite large, has grown to vast proportions. How do we respond?

A loving, egalitarian, environmentally conscious society is my vision. It is a vision i have held since my youth but only in recent years have been able to make it my own. In my youth, my vision became clouded with heavy emotional need. Yearning for love, i was driven to desperation. Whilst on the one hand keeping alive my vision of utopia and prepared to be the powerful person I Am, on the other I was addicted to subconscious patterns of seeking Love from others, particularly women, and thus continually gave my Power, my Sovereignty away. My subconscious is not interested in my plans, visions and dreams. It has its own agenda and although full of flaws, it nonetheless is extremely clever in the way it manipulates life in its favour. I found myself in a roman catholic marriage with all its inherent religious and societal values requiring assimilation, the strength of which I was totally unaware of as i signed the register 

The marriage, which i am very thankful for, ended, thankful for all the subconscious patterns it allowed me to face. Thanks too for all the restrictive collective subconscious patterns accumulated since conception which have taken a big toll on my body and on the body of the collective. A search for a new way of living, whilst trying to keep a roof over my head added a new emotion to my repertoire, fear of destitution. Although exhausted by so much emotion, my body’s awareness of my Divine presence was growing strong. I was being forced to choose. Since childhood I had heard those golden words ‘the kingdom of heaven is within’ and ‘love your neighbour, as you love yourself’. But i had very little connection with my inner world until i started dating women. With each new relationship, a difficult truth was slowly dawning, seeping through the cracks, relationships couldn’t fulfill the impossible dream of happily ever after that was still lingering in my bones. Now there seemed no other choice, I had to learn to face it all and love it all. The Love i had yearned for was me, this is what i kept hearing and then falling again and then rising to hear it again, and know it again and remember it again and fall and rise again. Love is the only answer and Love is within. From the seeming dread of unfulfilled desire i now rise above the dark clouds and see more clearly than ever before my desire for sexual union, for companionship, is simply another emotion yearning for my Love. I am a walking, talking, breathing manifestation of the union of Our Father in Heaven and Our Mother on Earth. I am Perfection. I am Love. I Am Divine. The unimaginable. The indescribable. Feeling unfulfilled is not a failure, is not a problem, is not an aberration, I have not sinned, penance is not required, there is nothing wrong with me, my looks, my hair, my style, my odour, my personality are not the issues. Feeling unfulfilled is simply an experience that the Divine I Am has orchestrated so beautifully, to see itself from a different perspective, to expand and create a new vista of Love. Now that it is seen for what it is, the masks have been removed and it can take a deep breath, smile and rest in peace 

Fears are our abandoned children, left outside on our doorsteps waiting to be let back in. We are called to reach out to them again, to open our hearts to them, speak with them and when I speak with them, what do they ask for? They chiefly want me to breathe and relax. And what happens when you breathe and relax? You step into the true you, that is always here, your Divine Self, your Spirit Self, your Sovereign Self, a dimension of life you can feel and Love and choose.

And so it was that on the morning of the 4th of May last in that zone of revelation between sleeping and waking, when strong emotions arose in my body looking for reassurance and Love, i turned my gaze to them and spoke with them, my friends and I thanked them for allowing me to see the Love that I Am. I could feel them in my gut. We smiled. They have shown me that the only response that truly matters is Love. They themselves don’t fully appreciate that, but they sense somehow that I have a presence that will not avoid them, scold them, try to get rid of them, reject them, get angry and frustrated because of them, satisfy them in an unsatisfactory manner and so on, a presence in which they will get space just to be themselves and relax, have a breather, feel for the first time that they are welcomed and wanted, feel that they could become so Light they simply fly back home, home to someplace they are gradually remembering, home to where they have come from, back home to Love

Emotions, you are our friends, you have come to help us, help us to realise the Divine beings that we all are. Thank you

Our governments are facing new issues. Restrictions appear to be easing yet unprecedented debt will need to be addressed. I am very grateful for these issues for they force me to make the choice, a precious golden choice, am I going to choose fear, am i going to allow fear to have free reign? Am i going to stand idly by and watch our grieving abandoned child of fear run amuck, or am I going to stand as the wonderful parent I Am? They force us all, if force be the way we have orchestrated it, to make the precious golden choice, are we going to continue to give our power away and let others decide how we are going to govern ourselves or are we going to stand as the powerful Divine Beings that we already are, each one a jewel in the Crown of the Kingdom of Heaven, each one of us a Royal Sovereign State, that remembers where we have come from and that knows all is well, and always will be well, dead or alive?  

No matter how many human rights you wish to address, no matter how brilliant the plans you possess, no matter how radically you wish to express, if your relationship with yourself is not at ease, ie, your relationship with your emotions, you will only bring your baggage to bear down on all your dreams and suffocate them. And so in responding to our nation and to our world in these changing times, I know deep in my heart that any talk of revolution or a new world or a better way of living are nothing without LOVE. LOVE is the only revolution and even more, LOVE has already won.

‘If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a ringing gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have absolute faith so as to move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing’ St Paul’s letter to the Corinthians

Our World is called to look within, each individual taking responsibility for the emotions that arise in their bodies, feel them and Love them as the Divine Parents we all are, Divine Beings in human form, a reflection of our Sovereign Divine Mother Earth in Union with our Sovereign Divine Father Heaven. Emotions now transformed, will express as emotions of Love and Light, beacons of unending fun and relaxation for all who still labour in darkness. This will be a portal to a New Earth, a portal which already exists, a portal which has been within you all along. Amen!! Alleluia and it is so 🙂  

I wish to acknowledge all the Guides who have supported these realisations and helped the creation of this portal to a New Earth. Specifically i would like to thank Matt Kahn whose energy has pointed me within to the Divine I Am. Also i would like to thank all the intimate relationships that i have experienced and that have aroused my body, mind and spirit to see who I really Am. Thank you covid19, these insights have been fine tuned in the extended periods of alone time i have experienced because of restrictions associated with your presence. As Matt would say ‘everything is here to help us’. And finally, i would like to thank you for reading.

May you and the whole World be blessed with Love and Light and it is already so. Amen!! Alleluia 🙂

Full moon message

Dear beloved people of the world, hard times call forth the wellsprings of Love that otherwise lie dormant deep within the caverns of our being. Challenging times such as these when there is so much uncertainty invite us to look deep within and seize the opportunity to Love like never before, to touch the fabric of our coronation robes, to kiss the diamonds of our regal rings and acknowledge that truly we are all citizens of the Royal Court of Heaven, living here on earth to shine our light into the darkness and show the world that the Light has never and will never be put out. We are here to show that Love is now in the hearts of all inviting us to a paradise of relaxation, kindness, fun, peace and plenty. Indeed we are all Divine beings who know the Love, the wellsprings of kindness and honesty that are our true divine nature and which will never be suppressed by any circumstance we find ourselves in, including all and everything that is unfolding in our world today. And this is the golden nugget of these challenging times, such times as these challenge us to buff up our buttons, straighten our ties and be the warriors of Love, warriors for relaxation, fun, kindness and honesty that we all truly are

These changing times are our invitation to pause, slow down and feel the Love that we are, to claim the Love, to step into the Love that we truly are. As we do this we will begin to see that every situation we face is a courier of Love knocking on our door offering us the opportunity to open yet another parcel of even deeper, wider, kinder, stronger Love that we are now ready to open up and become. The opening of these parcels has in my experience been mostly very challenging and disorienting. More often than not we are left asking ‘not this issue again, am I doing something wrong, is the world doing something wrong?’ It is the Light within you that will answer you, guide you and sustain you. Trust your intuition. Give yourself the space to find ways to acquaint yourself with your intuition. Your intuition is the Light within you that is speaking to you, the voice of God guiding you.

As others have said before, as we open to the Love we already are, we give others the permission to do the same. Love becomes more and more apparent, there is less and less confusion, everyone begins to open up. We begin to share our resources, hunger becomes a distant memory, kindness and fun, peace and plenty reign. Alleluia!!

Go and shine your Light in the darkness, that’s where its most needed and if there is any darkness, that darkness must first be faced in you 🙂

Happy full moon

Fionntáin 🌕🙂❤️

I Am

I Am,
that feeling you get when you look into the eyes of someone who says I love you and you both want to hold each other close

and I Am,
The most alluring body
The most elegant dresser

The most velvet of skins
The most engaging of eyes

The most agile athlete
The most satisfied business person
The most fulfilled worker
The most honest leader
The most eloquent teacher
The most attuned healer

The most holy of saints
The most famous clairvoyant
The most sacred of temples
The most precious of jewels
The most delightful of treasures
The most unexplored of seas

The most sensual scent
The most delicious taste
The most stunning sight
The most arousing touch
The most orgasmic sound
The most satisfying orgasm
The most pleasurable experience
The most attractive glance
The most blissful feeling
The most magical moment
The most luxurious home
The most invigorating storm

The most memorable of mornings
The most romantic of evenings
The most inspiring of days
The most tranquil of nights
The most cleansing of waters
The most relaxing of airs
The most brilliant of fires
The most fruitful of clays
The most nourishing of foods
The most monumental of mountains
The most mysterious of planets
The most radiant of stars

The most unimaginable of universes
The most unbelievable of heavens
The most enlightening of stories
The most spectacular of displays
The most hilarious of comedies
The most outrageous of dramas
The most enchanting of poems
The most majestic of songs
The most inspiring of voices
The most captivating of dances
The most creative of artists
The most ingenious of creators

The most lovable dad and
the most adorable mother
The most wonderful sister and
the most fabulous brother
The most wise and loving King
The most admired and loving Queen

The most relaxed, content, happy, kind, generous, loving, playful, funny, integrated, gifted, healthy, silly, unpredictable and abundant human being that ever lived and will ever live & the most beautiful person on earth

I Am all this and more, endlessly more, and so are You

I Love You ❤️

Shine on you crazy diamond

‘Shine on you crazy Diamond’ 

I feel so much wanting and yearning, searching and pushing, failure and upset, unease and dissatisfaction, sadness and loneliness, depression and fatigue, anger and frustration, uncertainty and confusion. What i am doing wrong? Is there something im not able to see?

My Father in Heaven, show me the way home, show me how to face all this wanting and yearning, searching and pushing, failure and upset, unease and dissatisfaction, sadness and loneliness, depression and fatigue, anger and frustration, uncertainty and confusion.

‘’In every moment as much as your body is able to, breathe and smile, relax, slow down, pause if you must, remember the spark of Love that still dwells inside. No matter what you have done or said or thought in the past, that spark of Love dwells in you, dwells in you forever, for indeed my beloved child, you are eternal, as I Am eternal.

From this place of relaxation, turn to the wanting and yearning, searching and pushing, failure and upset, unease and dissatisfaction, sadness and loneliness, depression and fatigue, anger and frustration, uncertainty and confusion and say, thank you for wanting me and yearning for me, for searching and pushing for me, it is ok now, I Am here for you, I want to love you, show me how to love you, what can i do for you?

Listen for an answer. Follow your intuition. Follow through. Be honest and respond with integrity. You may not receive an answer, or these emotions may not believe you and may tell you to go away, in all sorts of language. You may have to come back again and again as no doubt they will eventually come back to you again and again like the hurt and broken abandoned children that they are, who want no one else’s love but yours. And when they do you will love them again and again and again because this is who you really are, Love. It is your natural state of being. You love effortlessly.

And then one day, they will come to you again, all together, in a tsunami of deep fathomless emotion, flooding your whole body and you will shake and quiver, cry and gasp for breath as you are being smothered and in that moment you will remember to breath and relax and smile and love and you will say ‘Thank you wanting and yearning, searching and pushing, failure and upset, unease and dissatisfaction, sadness and loneliness, depression and fatigue, anger and frustration, uncertainty and confusion, for you have shown me that no matter how hard it gets, how dark, i can still shine the Light of Love in the darkness, for this is who i really am, Love.

So be the Love that you are, claim it, this is your time now. Be alive in Love. Be all-one in Love. Feel your Love. Step into your power. Stand in your power, fully present with every fibre and bone in your beautiful body and shine radiatiantly dear beloved child of mine. ‘Shine on you crazy diamond’ 

I Love You”

What do you really want?

As we drop deeper into winter let us take time to take stock, to drop deeper into ourselves. In these changing time, we are experiencing a lot of uncertainty. How do we face all that is uncertain?

Everything you have said or done was exactly what you were meant to say and do. Everything you wanted to say and do, but didn’t say and do, was exactly how it was meant to be. Give yourself a pat on the back for a job well done. But how can this be, I made a mess, I made a mistake and I get a pat on the back? I offer you this answer. We require some measure to gauge the quality of the Life we aspire to. Good and bad are one such gauge used for centuries and they too have done a good job. As more and more change takes hold and old institutions and systems of thought are questioned, the gauge of good and bad is slowly transmuting into a lighter energy, something not so black and white, dark and light, something that says that everything we do and say, though at times it may be difficult, is exactly what is meant to be, for all that is unfolding is exactly in accordance with the Divine plan, of which we are all, without exception, a part. The Divine has a plan. The Divine desires the unfolding of this plan and so it is

This is the word I would like to focus on in this moment, desire, a word which has, in recent centuries and in many countries, been used mainly in the realm of sexual activity. But it has a vast reach, at times smashing through the prejudices of centuries controlled imbalanced and extremely hurtful sexual expression. It burns through all oppression effortlessly and sets the stage for us all to stand in the power of our hearts, of our whole being that has desired to mate and thus create a hunan being, that has desired to create humanity, the same desire that has created the world, the planets, the stars, the universe, the whole show that we are privileged to witness in every moment of our day. It is desire that creates your moment now.

As you take stock in this moment, as you ask yourself how you are going to face all that is happening, all that is coming your way, it is time to take the focus away from choosing good or bad, the right choice, the wrong choice, the best choice, the worst choice. It is time for desire, what do you really want, what do you really love, what do you really desire?

‘Let yourself be silently drawn by the strange pull of what you really love. It will not lead you astray’



Thank you everyone who has sent greetings by text, online, by phone, in thought, word or deed. All your wishes are received with open arms and a wide open heart. It is wonderful to salute the achievement of living through another year on this planet, to celebrate all the accomplishments, everything from the lofty height of fame to simply living here and now, all are equally of value, all are a testament to the human spirit, the spirit that we are, the divine that we are, the magnificence that we are. Even in the gutter we are capable of looking up at the stars. My friends, it is with confidence i salute everyone who passes another year on earth because i know it is always a cosmic year for each and everyone

And so i salute myself for passing another year, and this time passing another decade. These last decades feel more significant, passing into my twenties and thirties hadnt the same impact. And now 60. Its a new number for my body, a nice curvy number, a nurturing number. The 6 echoes pregnancy, a harbinger of new creations, the 0 is very complete and satisfied. I know i have passed through much stress in my life, relationships, religion, education, professions, all of which required a lot of energy to address, yet in the end brought forth within me a Love like i have never known before. I have felt as i said in my facebook live video of 15June last that i am conscious of moving from my 50s into my 60s, and then more, cause im still moving from my childhood, my 20s, my 30s and my 40s too and then more cause in these last months of covid 19 i have had lots of time to myself, which i am very grateful for, and i have felt a great tiredness and i have talked with this tiredness and my angels have talked to me about the tiredness, the higher realms that are within have connected with me, they are me as they are you, and what i have felt is that i am moving from the childhood, the 20s, the 30s, the 40s and the 50s of the world into a new decade, a new era. If i remember correctly from chemistry, the law of nature dictates that it takes energy to move from one substance to another. It is requiring a massive concentrated conscious effort from the millions if not billions of energetically sensitive souls, to slow down, relax, breath and trust that what the world is going through at this time is a transition for old ways into the joy and peace that we have prayed for for thousands of years. There is nothing urgent about this, if fact it is the contrary, we must slow down, because we have been flitting about like bees in a bottle for centuries and we’re not bees and we dont like living in bottles. It will all happen in perfect divine timing. But everyone is called to be part of this. This massive concentrated conscious loving alignment with our higher selves is for many causing great tiredness. If any of you are feeling over whelmed, tired, exhausted, i invite you to take the hand of Love that dwells within you and walk at your own pace into the new era that is dawning on earth 

We are all connected, and if one is celebrating a birthday, we all are, to greater or lesser degrees. My angels, my higher self acknowledge that eachi day on this magnificence we call earth is a birthday for the planet. There is much to cebrate today. They reassure my body that all is well. I wish to reassure you too that all is well.

I Love you all

White Sky, Green Tree, Pink Bell, New Me…. At 60 


Take a good look at yourself

The world is asked to take a good look at itself. To do that we must first release the embrace and step back; leave ourselves, the lives we live and look. When we realise who we really are, the reunion, the new embrace, becomes more nourishing and joyous than we ever could imagine.




Updated 17Apr20

The world is constantly changing, the sun rising and falling, new inventions and developments in technology, infrastructure, the growth and decay of trees, our passing years, the tough times, the fun times. It appears that nothing remains the same. Yet there is one constant sound, a voice that keeps calling to us, a presence that remains unchanged

In my journey towards a happier, more contented life, I look back on the most painful episodes as my greatest moments of growth. These were the times, particularly in close relationships, when i came to realise most about myself, the times when i have learned to allow barriers to drop and accept those barriers that still wish to stand. It is the most painful experiences that have been my greatest teachers. Matt Kahn once asked ‘What if the worst things that ever happened to you were actually the greatest opportunities you’ve ever been given?’ And so it is with gratitude that i recall those times when my heart was broken, for now i can see that it was only broken so that it could open up and allow more and more love to flow freely. The best choices you can make aren’t necessarily the most attractive ones. Just because it’s not all rosy in the garden doesn’t mean that you’re not leading a fulfilling life. Life can deal out tough times and will only do so in order for us to become the best versions of ourselves that we can be.
‘Life could not have happened any other way for you to become who you were born to be’ Matt Kahn
So i have come to welcome all that life presents to me, for i feel that everything is a perfect manifestation of Divinity in form. Everything is Love, dressing up in different guises to experience its unlimited potential, yet always at its core remaining the same, Love, that constant unchanging voice that is calling to us always, always inviting us to the paradise of plenty. This does not mean that everything in this life has to be pleasant. It does not mean that i have to like everything, that i’ve done something wrong if at times i find it challenging. It is a reminder of the constant unchanging invitation to love, to know that you are Love….. that you are loved….. an invitation to be that Love. No matter what life presents, you can go within and find the resources, the strength, wisdom and Love to first greet and welcome it, even if it’s inconvenient, knowing that through whatever difficulty it poses, Love will have the final say, because Love is the voice, the unending murmur and beat at the heart of all.
‘As Love pervades everything what is that we are not thankful for ’ Amma
And so it is with a heart of Love that I turn my attention to COVID-19. I welcome it and ask, that through all the challenges it poses for me and for us as a society, what are the messages it would like to share?
‘Hello COVID-19, you are very welcome to my world. What would you like to say to me?’
‘Sleep well, eat good food, exercise. Listen to your body. Use your wise and loving intuition to respond to all the information being broadcast about me.
My name was given to me by the World Health Organisation who also monitors my progress and advises governments around the world how and when to respond to me. There are different schools of thought on the source and cause of COVID-19 and thus different views on how to respond. Yet the age old message is still as revelant now as ever before: Take good care of yourself, be kind to others and relax.
This is my greatest message to you, relax, breathe easy and know that all is well. The Universe gives you all you need in every moment. Like all people, you are doing the best you can. Like all people, you cannot do any better than what you are doing and you are not being asked to do any better than what you are doing. Like all people, you have never made a mistake and you never will. You are perfect exactly as you are; you always have been and always will. So breathe. Your angels are surrounding you and supporting you with every move you make, with every breath you take. You are not alone. And contrary to what many feel, I am an energy that is here principally to help you. Many people are feeling fear because of me and you can sense this fear. Fear is a complex emotion and has been part of the world’s lot since ancient times. But there are now new, lighter ways to face fear which help to heal it. One of those lighter ways is to see fear as containing many messages which are for our benefit. All is Love at different frequencies. Like a dimmer switch, fear is a very low vibration of Love. It’s very dark down there, difficult to see the Love, but it is becoming easier. The fear you are sensing now has been in incubation for centuries waiting for a moment in time, in which it could feel confident enough to come out into the light, reveal itself to you and know it would be listened to, acknowledged, respected and at last find peace. This, my friend, is one such moment, a moment of great opportunity, a moment in which you are invited to face fear like never before, to face fear not as a victim in a hostile world where everything is happening to you, but as the kind, compassionate angel that you are, in an abundant world where all is happening for you. Now is the moment to respond to fear with Love. Show yourself to be truly kind as you care for yourself and others and look out for the vulnerable around you. Show yourself to be truly wise as you listen openly to all the information you are receiving about me. Show yourself to be truly loving as you, at last, face the fears that have waited for you for so long.
This fear is here now to help you. It wants to speak to you and tell you what it has longed for all these years. It wants you to ask it, ‘How may i help you?’ But first, it knows you need to relax, relax as best you can, as much as your body is able at this time, for you have led a very busy life and have had very little time to relax, so it knows you must take time out, slow down and perhaps for the first time ever, learn how to relax. And in these days of restricted movement, you have an ideal opportunity to do just that, slow down and relax. Because you have been raised in so much fear, you have spent a lot of time in fight or flight response. You have thus become accustomed to shallow breathing, only utilising a small percent of your airways, wanting to divert all your energy to protect yourself. And so to begin with, focus on breathing naturally and as you do, begin to go deeper and deeper, deep down into your belly, not just into your throat, or your chest, deeper still, down into the base of your belly, big long luscious breaths to give your lungs a good stretching, breathe new life into the very channels that I am able to infect. Open up your airways and this conscious injection of fresh air into deep and dark caverns of your body will, i know, play a major role in responding with Love to the fear that my presence generates. An antidote of Love for the fear that the world is feeling, all playing out in our lungs. It will feel uneasy, laboured at first, but stay the course, there’s plenty of help available, lots of further information if you wish to make this a daily practice. Now is the time to bring new life into your lungs. Begin to breathe easily, naturally, breathe like a baby and become once again the brilliant shining light being of beauty, of relaxation and joy that you truly are.
Now that you have taken time out, and you are as relaxed as your body can be at this time, you are in the best zone to ask the question, ‘How may i help you fear?’ Then listen. If you perceive a reply, act upon the guidance given as best you can. Be the parent this fear has waited for all its life. You will not be lead astray, nay, you and your whole community will be lead to wider and wider vistas of the peace, joy and Love that you already are.
This fear has been like an abandoned child, neglected, waiting on your doorstep for years. When you turn and attend to it, it may remain silent, it may take time for it to be reassured that you have it’s best interests at heart. You must be patient. It may need to come back to you again and again and again looking for that reassurance. And each time you will be there to welcome it, for it is not important to know the time in which it will find the peace it yearns for, what is important is that you give it the time it asks for, each time it comes calling.’
‘Thank you COVID-19 for all that i can learn from you.’
This is a moment to stand in the perfection of our Divine essence, for it is from there and only from there that we respond with Love. It is not the first time we have been called to do so. Jesus for one has been inviting us to the banquet of our glory for years. He has said in the gospels, and i paraphrase: Love your enemies, pray for those who persecute you, that you may become like your Father in Heaven, who lets the sun shine on the evil and on the good. If you only love those that love you or greet only your own people, where is the growth in that. Be perfect, he has said, as your Father in Heaven is perfect.
May all people affected in any way by COVID-19 be blessed with all the peace and joy their hearts desire and it is so.
Image by Pete Linforth

Get Well Soon ?

Get Well Soon ?

How is that possible? Are you not already a beautiful manifestation of divinity in flow? Are we not already pure? Are we not already Love? Is it not the case that ‘All is already Well’?

Prehaps ‘Get well soon’ is now obsolete. We, each one of us without exception, have the power within to address each circumstance with Love. We are stars wrapped in skin. We are spirits dressed up as humans. We are already perfect

When we stand in the Light of our perfection, and from this Divine space respond with Love to all that arises and care for ourselves and our loved ones when in pain, we observe with new eyes that see through to the beauty in everything. The next time your loved ones are experiencing pain, whilst you care for their pain and give them all the attention they need, I invite you to consider saying ‘With this pain may you know the Love that you already are’

To unravel this a little more, life is always blessing us. Gain is a blessing. Pain is a blessing. Bliss is a blessing. Loss is a blessing. Each circumstance is an opportunity to know the Divine beings that we are and that nothing, no adversity, no tradegy, no pain can ever quench the fire of Love that burns and explodes like the sun, forever deep inside

It is when we hold this truth deep in our hearts with every breath we take, with every move we make, that our Light becomes brighter and brighter for all to see

‘Things will be the way we want them to be when it’s perfectly OK when they’re not’ Matt Kahn

This is my truth today. I have no guarantee. I do not offer insurance. I am simply pointing the way home. Will you come with me?

The Fire of Imbolc 2020

FB_IMG_1580819052832IMBOLC is an ancient festival, one of the 4 great festivals of our ancestors celebrating the cycle of Life and Death: Imbolc, Pregnancy 1Feb, Bealtaine, New Life 1May, Lúnasa, Harvest 1Aug and Samhain, Death 1Nov. Imbolc is an Irish word meaning ‘in belly’, which for me honours pregnancy, pregnancy in all sentient beings, as we are always pregnant with something just as there is always something dieing within us in the ever changing constant flow of life, the sun rises and falls on us all.

Change can be challenging and it manifests as a block for many of us, an obstacle, a problem, a fear.

Change, the constant fluid flow of life finds a happy home in nature. Nature reminds us of our fluid essence, reminds us that we are always provided for whilst in flow. Nature in our world today must contend with the blocks we constantly build in order to store up for our future rainy days, in order to calm our unease, create security, our insurance for the fear we constantly seek to sooth.

And yet even now in our world today we are witnessing the change within solid stores of our insurance, for no matter how secure we may feel they are, more and more people are waking up each day to the truth that there is nothing to be afraid of and everything to be thankful for. For we, without exception, without condition or prejudice, are co creative beings pregnant with life, nurturing life, celebrating a life changing, passing to other dimensions constantly in flow and never ending. We are cosmic beings experiencing all that life on earth has to offer

This is why I like to celebrate the 4 great seasons of my ancestors for they remind me that I Am Life I Am Love I Am and so are you and so is all and so it is. Amen Alleluia ♥️

Thank you Lynn Kirkham, Artist, for lighting this Imbolc fire, celebrating Brigid the Divine Feminine, patiently showing us how to make a St Brigid Cross and honouring the palindrome date 02 02 2020 at the hour of 20.02

A Forest Path of Healing

IMG_20190816_191704.jpgI don’t  know how the planets are aligned, how the numbers are adding up or what energy the land is emitting today, but it has been a wonderfully productive day, no more than that, the day has brought forth many blessings for me and all who visit me here in my forest



My strawbale cabin has finally got a roof, less the slates, which protects the bales and allows me to work inside when it’s raining outside. And it has manifested the most wonderful surprise. 21 years ago I drew up plans for my forest which included a path. I have been blessed with many volunteers over the last 3 months. My current team were earmarked to plaster my cabin but I wasn’t ready. So I asked them to create the path thru the forest instead. Because there was so much work and clearing, I wasn’t expecting them to get thru it all. Their task was to make it clear for someone new where the entrance was, follow a circuitous route and return where they started and let me know when it was finish. I was very busy when they told me it was ready but I got a chance to ready myself and breath relaxedly before I entered. I wasnt expecting what unfolded.

I began, they followed me and we walked silently through what they and the trees now presented me with, a beautiful calm meditative walking space. I cried and smiled as I made my way through. I smiled as I recognised the beauty that is my essense. I cried as I immersed myself in such beauty. I cried as that part of my ego that was not convinced that dreams can come true was healed, a dream I held so long it began to feel that it was just an idea on paper. Now it was real. This is the beginning of the path and others will come and contribute their creative light to the evolution of its Healing essence  deep in the Heart of the Glen of Aherlow. I am deeply grateful to all the volunteers and friends that have assisted and supported my strawbale cabin and today I am deeply grateful to Alessandra and Daniele to Jarrah, Francesco, Elisa and my trees for the beautiful energy of Light that they have gifted me with. It is so inspiring for me.

I continue to build my cabin and prepare space for music and dance here in my forest. I look forward to all the new volunteers that are coming and i welcome all those who are drawn  to walking our forest path of Healing.



Jesus is Laid to Rest

Jesus has endured the wrath of a consciousness that could not stomach him and now rests asleep before he rises into the Light being he was confident he already was, the Light being he knows he will become tomorrow when he rises and walks with his friends again on earth. Yesterday I was finishing the first draft of my book ‘From Codependency and the Roman Catholic Church to Freedom’ saying how through out my life, I stumbled and fell, but it was the Light within me that inspired me to rise again and again and again. Then I realised it was Good Friday and I felt further inspired by this synchronicity, this dramatic black ritual of my youth when the bells were silenced and mourning and grief were the order of the day as my fellow Light Being stumbled and fell along his journey to the Light. I felt I had come full circle and in writing the book, was making my contribution to the transformation of those rituals of my youth and the realignment of the energy of 2000 years to the Light of Divinity which we all are already. As I wrote the book I became more and more aware of the layers of conditioning that ly hidden in the rituals and beliefs I grew up with. I wasn’t surprised in some ways and really surprised in others. Many Roman Catholics have laboured under a yoke we could not see for we were reared on it and to us it was, well it just was, untouched, the thing which can’t be named, the unmentionable, the unthinkable, vast caverns of the stuff and I feel many energetically sensitive souls are waking up and slowly removing that yoke which has permeated every strand of our society, saying thank you for all you have brought us, we now wish to relax and align with a lighter energy. The answer to what we have endured will always be Love. To clearly demonstrate that Love, it is so important to create 

(A) a clear acknowledgement of the immense energy these rituals contained,
(B) a clear acknowledgement of how that energy has affected us, influenced our decisions and directed our lives and
(C) a clear acknowledgement of and commitment to the new paradigm we now wish to step into.
So if anyone reading this would like to comment on A, B or C, I would delighted to hear from you.

May we all be blessed with the Love and Light that we already are and it is so
🙏 ♥️⭐🎶⭐♥️🙏

From fear come home to the Light

Recently I read an article about coping with fear and it read something like this: 

‘Examine what makes you feel fearful. Ascertain how much validity there is to it and discard the rest. Confront your worst case scenario and take charge of it. Bring yourself to a state of peace’

This is impossible to do, because you are already a state of Peace, we all are, we have simply forgotten. It’s like asking a car to become a car… Ahemm… Hello… That is what I am, I am already a car. Peace is your natural state. This article describes a way of facing fear I have followed in different ways for many years. I am thankful for the wisdom it carries, for its call to confront our fears and take charge. Yet life is changing, love seeks to express itself ever more clearly and magnificently on earth than ever before and as a consequence the guidance home to the Light is changing too. In the new paradigm we say that we are Spirit Beings on Earth come to take charge of, to care for and love our bodies and heal the eons of abuse, abandonment and neglect that have left our bodies in a state of fear. Absolutely nothing about that fear is invalid or must be discarded. Yes, it must be faced, but welcomed with the face of Love and Light that we already are, every inch of this fear bathed in the Love and Light that we already are, on and on and on again and again and again, bathed in Love and Light, nó matter the cost, until the fear comes to see that it’s OK now, I am in charge, someone is truly expressing Love and they can take your hand and though still feeling unsure, walk with you like the abandoned child that they once were, still a little fearful, unsure and uncertain, now trusting you more and more and walking with you home to the Light. I invite all souls who feel abandoned and neglected to come walk with me home to the Light. I love you all ♥️

Life is everchanging

Life is ever changing, stretching, reimagining itself and it feels to me today, as the balance tips in favour of brighter days in the northern hemisphere, that we all are invited to fulfill our true potential of unimaginable proportions by befriending the wave of change that is our essence. Today this video for me marks a milestone in my spiritual journey. A message I found difficult to hear sometime ago has reached deep into my heart and there found new freaky levels of love which I am still integrating in my body.

You can sharpen your pencil with a blade and feel like as if you’re making progress but if the lead is not in good condition, when you begin to write it will break under the pressure. In the same way we may feel we are developing in life, making progress, but if the foundations we build on are not strong, our lives will eventually break under the pressure. The only pencil lead, the only foundation that is real, is true and everlasting is The Light I Am


Today my body is financially stressed, I breathe
Today my body feels despair, I breathe
Today its hard to relax, I breathe
Today some say the universe is transmitting waves of healing clearing transforming energy never before experienced on this planet, I breathe
Today I acknowledge that whatever I feel I am feeling also on behalf of those on our planet who cannot feel, I breathe
Today, as always, feeling is healing, and our planet is a better place because we feel, I breathe

Breath I am told is all we take with us when we go
Breath in, breath out, up and down is the natural flow of all things, a wave pattern completing the circle of life in each moment, the rhythm of life
Breath celebrates the light and the dark, the ups and downs all of which are precisely what is required to live life to the full
Breath, exhale, celebrates the winter of our day when all that is old and ready to go, leaves us.
Breath, inhale, celebrates the summer of our day when newness replaces the old and life reborn blossoms in bursts of splendid colour
Breath as Matt Kahn might say, is a celebration of the erosion of old ways and the renewal of new life, both which take place in an instant each time we breathe, both of which are essential for us to become who we were born to be.

When you find yourself in times of trouble, breathe deeply relaxedly, the Universe is helping you always. When you find yourself in times of joy, breathe deeply relaxedly, the Universe is with you always

Dear souls of the Universe, show me how to breathe deeply and relaxedly always. Show me how to love all that arises, for on my own i do not know how ♥️

My Body Gently Weeps

I wanted to share this video again, ‘While my guitar gently weeps’, (see below), because it inspires me so much, and i began to write some thoughts on it by way of introduction. It turns out my body had more to say about it than i expected

The more you bring your attention to anyone or anything, your conscious, honest, courageous attention, and acknowledge and answer with kindness what is arising within you as a result, the more you ‘fall in love’, or as i prefer to say, the more you drop deeper into a deeper love, a deeper love that feels so deep only because you have forgotten how endless, how vast, how wide, how high, how deep, how all encompassing love is, this love, which is who you already are.

There are people or things that each of us are drawn to more than others and this is good, because with our attention focused on these, we find it is easier to touch the love. And so it is good for us to become clear, if we have not already done so, as soon as possible on who these people and things are. For me today, amongst other things, i find myself drawn once again to this exquisite live performance, in which the play of musicianship, voice, lyric, innocence, honesty, yearning and passion remind me yet again that the best place for me to draw my attention to at this time, is me, and specifically my body.

George Harrison has written a song yearning for love, a song i feel which is sung to you, me, to all the people of the world, a song in which he admits that he doesn’t know how the world has become so perverted, how love has become so inverted. From this place of innocent, powerful honesty he struggles to find meaning, like a child, feeling lost, the innocence draws forth from him a wonderful song, and brings together on this occasion, a wonderful line up of artists brewing up a tour de force topped off by one of my most treasured guitar solos. Today, I say to you beautiful George Harrison, yes, with every mistake we are learning. Love in many ways appears to be perverted. But there is change happening and happening thanks to wonderful angels on earth like Matt Kahn who spreads the message of the new paradigm, the new love revolution on earth with his clarion call: ‘Whatever Arises Love That’. This is a brief description of ‘Whatever Arises Love That’ :

Nothing you have said, done or thought in the past has anything got to do with the essence of you in this moment. You are a child of God, an angel on earth, come down here to inhabit your beautiful body, to feel everything and still show to the world that your light still shines. It is the mission of every energetically sensitive soul to experience all of whatever the world has to offer, the hurts and difficulties, the joys and relaxation, no matter what arises, and love that. In feeling our hurts whenever they arise, acknowledging them, speaking to them and loving them, just like as if they are abandoned children on our doorstep, which we have taken back into our homes, holding them, reassuring them, giving them all the attention they require, all the space and care they need, allowing them to relax and return home to safety, security, to the essence of who they are, which is love, which is light. This need for acknowledgement and attention, can take a lifetime to satisfy, if not many lifetimes, in fact, there are no time limits. Love is timeless, and this endless eternal time is what we offer the pain and the depression, for endless time is who we are, we have nothing else to offer and nothing less will match the depth of the suffering on earth, than the offer of endless eternal love. The person whose body once felt hurt, who has loved the hurt, who has allowed the hurt all the time it needs to heal itself and now feels at ease in their body, feels relaxation, is a shining light for all those that come into his/her presence, inspiring them to love their hurts in a similar fashion. Thus little by little, one by one, people grow in love, like flowers rising from fertile soil into the light, and they spread that love to their families, their friends, their neighbours and to all those they come in contact with, by simply being themselves, naked before all, no pretence, no masks, allowing everyone who has eyes to see, whose body is ready to see and wants to see the light of their own soul. This transformation is taking place right now all over the planet, under the radar of mainstream media, yet it is headline news, the greatest revolution this planet has ever seen.

Yes love in many ways appears to be perverted. Yet, if we resonate with the call to love whatever arises, then we are called to love perversion in all its forms whether in ourselves or others. Therefore, paradoxically the alchemical key to the transformation of perversion, lies in the perversion itself. All perversion no matter how heavy or how light has found a home in each of our hearts, in each cell of each of our bodies. I know no one who has not, in some way, at some stage in their lives, being perverted, in other words, has not been corrupted or distorted from their original course, their original essence, which is love. My journey from perversion and corruption, back to my original essence continues, as i turn my attention more and more to the people and things that allow me to touch love, self love, including my close female friends and this exquisite tour de force. I have come to see, after all the honesty and courage, artistic expression, meditation, spiritual practices and research, sexual experiences, tantric exploration, pornography, diet and exercise commitments, journaling and all the kindness i have shown to myself, that my body is still not satisfied. I have changed much, but more is called for. In tantric exploration i have discovered a lot about myself, but all the tantric exercises i have learnt can only be of value in the context of first becoming clear and committed to ‘Whatever arises Love That’. And so I remain steadfast and continue to love whatever arises, and what is arising for me over and over again is my unsatisfied weary body, so i love you my unsatisfied weary body and turn to you yet again and ask you, ‘How may i help you’, i slow down and listen, give you time to respond to me and then i respond lovingly to your requests, and when i don’t, i love the one who didn’t, i pick myself up, dust myself off and start again. I want my spirit to merge fully with my whole body in sexual bliss and ecstasy and i would love to experience that bliss and ecstasy with my soulmate. And it is to you now, my dear soulmate, that i speak:

I would really love to meet you, my beautiful sexy radiant goddess, my soulmate. I know you are with me in spirit, so with joy, i would like to take this opportunity, on this public forum, to invite you again, to come live with me on earth. I know that having faced this yearning for you for so long, dear sweet lover, I have come to see that i am drawn back again and again and again with each step i take, to love myself first, that my body is saying to me yet again, ‘i want more from you, more attention, more touch, more time, please, please, slow down, breathe easy, look at me and touch me, let me guide you, touch me hard, touch me slow, touch me the way i want you to touch me’. As i commit to loving my body more, i know i am also continuing to prepare a loving space for you in my heart, my dear sweet lover, and i know we will live there together one day in harmony, loving all that arises for the highest good of all

And now i would like to speak to you, my beautiful body

Despite the fact that i have unconsciously avoided the full potential of our relationship, my dear body, you are still, after all these years open to my overtures, drawn by my flirtation, curious in our foreplay, even at times excited and energised, willing yet again to give our relationship another chance, to dance again with me. You are so powerful, so wonderful, so resilient, so forgiving, a living testament to love. In my striving for pleasure, i know i have primarily turned my attention to my genitals to the detriment of the rest of you, my body. I am sorry. This was the only way to pleasure myself that i knew, that was common place, even though it was and still is shrouded in doubt and shame, no one showed me how to do anything else. I commit today to giving you, the complete you, all the attention and time you desire. Please show me how to love you. I recognise that you are unique as all bodies are unique, and so your needs maybe similar in some ways to others, but may also be different from others. So please show me how to pleasure you, for i do not know.

I admit i have not realised the full power and potential of my body. I admit that in the past no one told me this. I admit that in the past no one alerted me to this. I admit i am being told now. I admit that in my yearning for love, i have allowed others to control me. I admit that i have held the belief that the spirit and the spiritual life has supremacy over the body and life on earth. I admit now that the spirit, the earth and the body are one and the same, equal parts of the bigger picture, the one continuum, and in so declaring i reclaim my power. I admit that i am following my passion, and in so doing, that i am been shown how to love myself by my guides, my higher self and all my beautiful friends. I admit all this and from this lighter place i see that what i need to do is touch my body so so so much more than ever before until every square inch of it comes to realise, to be convinced, to know that yes, indeed, truly i do love it. Then, somehow, the power that lies latent within it, the magnificent magnetic electric union of my spirit and my flesh, which i have glimpsed at times, will shine like never before for my highest good and the highest good of all.

And now, I touch my body like never before. I call on my angelic self, my spirit guides and the highest expression of me to guide me and I feel them guiding me through it all. I see all the people in my life who have assisted in sculpting my body image, who have influenced my sexual expression. I see all the women that I have been close to who have inspired me to a deeper love. Change is happening. My intention has changed. My attention is on pleasuring all of my body, instead of just simply an excited thrust towards ejaculation. There is a big difference between both, canyons of pleasure, feelings and sensations between them. I bring my attention to all of my body, my conscious, honest, courageous attention to every square inch of it, and acknowledge and answer with kindness what is arising in my body. I am falling in love with my body, dropping deeper into a deeper love ♥️

George, I have no doubt that we are learning for, in answering my yearning for love, guided by my spirit, i touch my body the way i have always longed to be touched by others. The lessons turn out to be quite simple really. Now in this lighter brighter place of relaxation and honesty, my body gently weeps, openly weeps, as it, at long last, reveals and heals the hurt of a thousand generations that have cried silently within for millennia. And so i am free ♥️

May my body be blessed with everything i desire. Amen Amen Alleluia, for it is so. May your body be blessed with everything you desire. Amen Amen Alleluia, for it is so. May all bodies be blessed with everything we desire. Amen Amen Alleluia, for it is so ♥️

All blessings, comments and guidance are welcomed and appreciated ♥️

Thank you for reading this, thank you my dear friends, i am grateful for all the women i have been intimate with, i am grateful for all those who have touched me, i am grateful for planet earth and for the universe. Thank you, I love you. Thank you my body, thank you George Harrison, i am grateful for all my family and friends, for all people and energies everywhere in all dimensions, time and space, you all have contributed to the person and to the expression of sexuality, the expression of love that i am. Thank you, I love you all ♥️ HAPPY EQUINOX!!


Today 1 March, in Bulgaria and other neighbouring countries they celebrate spring in a festival called Martinetsa. People give gifts called martenitsi. They are red and white tassels which are adorned with different charms for good fortune, worn as bracelets, necklaces, brooches, hung on trees, in the home, workplace or anywhere one wishes. There are many theories about the origins of the festival. This is mine. White symbolises purity, divinity, the masculine. Red symbolises life, passion, the feminine. The festival is a call from the deepest parts of ourselves for the unity between both, for we know only too well that this is the only way to ensure good fortune for all, and so we know no better way to call on good fortune as we celebrate the coming of new life in spring 💟 Thank you Bulgaria for all the inspiration 💟 And so I send you a wish today. May the masculine and feminine be united in harmony within you here on earth, in the flesh of your body, now and forever more and it is so 💟

Poland, Kraków and Me


I have met many polish people in Ireland, so it’s nice now to come and experience the country for myself first hand. I travelled from Berlin to Kraków by bus and have been here for 4 weeks, i leave tomorrow for Budapest. These are my impressions. As is generally the case when one begins a new relationship, it may take more time for Poland and i to get acquainted. Yet, as i write, i do not underestimate the power of intuition which can very quickly touch the heart of the matter and bring forth rich insight, deeper and more rewarding than the results of hours of analysis. And so i wish to allow my own intuition to be my principal guide. I wish to bring all the love from within me to this relationship. I want to be as clear as possible in my description, to be respectful to the myriad of vibrations that go to make up this wonderful land. Therefore, it is with confidence that i ask my angels to guide me as i write, that my words may support and enhance all that is good for the wellbeing of the people of Poland and the entire world.

Leaving Ireland

Last year, waiting for my separation agreement to be finalised in Ireland and knowing that creatively i had done all i could do in ireland, i decided to travel. I have had an amazing year, as a workawayer, a couchsurfer, a guest, a friend, a pilgrim, a tourist, part of the audience, part of the team, part of the land and of the sea, always immersed in Love, the life force that creates and sustains it all. I have changed so much, so much that i have come full circle in a way, knowing that although feeling fresh and younger than i’ve ever been, i touch the ancient pools of love within my being that show me that i am always, and always have been, the same. My experiences have been guided by two irrevocable principles: I am the light and everything is here to help us. I have come from heaven into my body to love and care and nurture it through all its pain, back to the glory of its shining light that it so longs to see and taste and touch again. This is the vibration i shine everywhere i go, relentlessly. As i meet new friends, i see angels, sometimes it has taken longer, but i eventually see angels. As i move through different countries i see love, sometimes it has taken longer, but i eventually see love.

This is the vibration i bring to Poland


In Kraków, people who had promised to accommodate me on couchsurfing, didn’t show up or had to cancel. Very quickly i found a lovely apartment in an area of the city called Kazimierz, which turned out to be just what i needed. Time to be just by myself. It was beautifully decorated and appointed, trees growing lusciously outside, warm and quite, a place of relaxation. This is what my body needed. I discovered i was so exhausted. I had been working for others, holding space for others and caring and loving others for a long time and although i had taken lots of opportunities to rest, i was still governed greatly by the needs of others. This was the first time in a long time, in fact maybe the first time ever, that i truly was making space just for me. Certainly i can say i was making space for the me that is continually changing and evolving, manifesting in my body the love that is my essence, like never before. And i come to Poland so confident that i, the angel spirit being that i am, perfection of love that is the light i shine as i travel, carry with me my beautiful body and give it all the time it needs to express, to taste, to touch, to smell, see and hear as it wishes, reassuring it that i am here for it 24/7 whenever it needs me, reminding it at every opportunity i love it, always, no matter what.

This is the vibration i bring to Poland….

…. I gaze upon its endless monocultured fields, its hills and valleys, its streams and rivers, on the grave candles in twilight, on the big billboards and it’s even bigger new shining shopping malls, its transport systems and its architecture, bold and modern, romantic and classical, socialist and capitalist, religious and secular, strong and tumbledown. I observe with greater interest, the sounds and movements of its people, who have endured much suffering for so many years. I watch as they each in their own unique way, respond to the stream of messages that influence every aspect of their daily life and see a young nation searching for its identity, an ancient identity, bashed and battered, still being bashed and battered, but facing it with great resilience. This resilience isn’t always clear at first. There is much prosperity, a lot of people are well off, a lot have achieved much success, have found stability and safety in a changed political reality and have a confident stride. A lot of people are poor and suppressed and a lot are in between, busy managing to get by, feeling the now common worldwide trance, caught in a treadmill of highs and lows, with very little time to themselves, very little time to pause and notice the Love that lies in their hearts, in all hearts. The essence of everyone and everything is Love. And it is to this Love that i turn. It is to the heart of the Polish person, the Love that they all truly are, as all citizens are everywhere, that i turn my gaze and focus my attention as i describe my experience of their county.

Kraków has given me so much.

  1. An opportunity to rest, to converse with and answer the needs of my body, to love my body, like never before
  2. My first time to offer free hugs on the street and my offer was warmly received by lots of locals and tourists
  3. Kraków is like a lot of european cities, focused around an old town centre, the beautiful, often romantic, elitist and wonderful power houses of church, state and the wealthy, leaving everyone else to live in a descending standard of housing from, understated grandeur to poverty.
  4. ‘Kladka O. Bernatka’, (Bridge of Fr. Bernatka) a beautiful pedestrian bridge over the Vistula, with flying sculptures
  5. The magnificent Wawel castle, complete with dragon, called forth all my regality
  6. Walking into the market square at night all lit up complete with romantic horse drawn white carriages with tassels and frills and hearts bedecked, called forth my beauty and love
  7. Zakopane in the Tatry Mountains 2 hours by bus south of Kraków was such a joy. I am so thankful to these magnificent snowy mountains, they touched my heart so much and brought a tear to my eye.
  8. I am so thankful to Kraków and to Poland for allowing me to touch new deeper levels of sorrow and pain within myself and heal them. Allow me to explain

Sorrow and Pain, Happiness and Love

The primary energy i experience here, as is the case everywhere i go on my travels, is a yearning for happiness and Love. In order to find this Love, the energy of Kraków principally turns to the past. It simultaneously celebrates the glory of powerful historical achievement and grieves the sadness of powerful historical abuse. Many find solace in religious observance, others in the capitalist dream of a bright new future that wipes away the sorrow and restores the glory. Many are caught between these two ideological pillars that tussle for the nation’s soul. This results is an uneasy energy, still struggling to cope with a history that continues to weigh heavily on its shoulders

Slowly opening my eyes to a new day, as i lay in that twilight zone between sleeping and waking, a place of rich insight, i felt i touched the true heart of Poland. In the end Poland is no different to most other countries. A community of people, who find themselves in a land governed by elitist, powerful people who control and defend the wealth of the nation which they distribute amongst the citizens unevenly, based on laws created by a predominantly masculine energy, crazed by their own subjugation of the feminine, leading them to operate for millennia in a very control and fearful hierarchical paradigm. These elitist, powerful people teach citizens that their identity is confined between the borders that they have established and maintained chiefly by military force, repeating the traditions, flying the flags and singing the songs that reinforce this identity, whilst all along missing the essential value, the true power of themselves and of all citizens, the love which is at the heart of each one of us, which instantaneously dissolves the borders, the structures so long defended by fear, opens up freedom of exchange with other people, regardless of color or creed, and shines the light of love everywhere they go ensuring an even distribution of the god given wealth of the land to all.

And yet this endemic injustice, found in the majority of earth’s governments, is love’s way of of bringing us to our senses. What we fear most, the people and powers that have hurt us the most, are our greatest harbingers of Love. Poland’s current situation is perfection in motion. Even the pain and suffering still latent in the cellular memory of this nation’s body, from centuries of war and abuse, has within its core the beating heart of Love. I have experienced the suffering and misery of emotional abuse. I have endured it, got lost in it, despaired in it and finally have come to realise the Love in it, the Love in me. This realisation changed everything. Everything is love, there is nothing but love, there never was anything but Love and there will never be anything but Love. Darkness is not the fearful place of horror some have taught us to believe. We are missing the point of darkness. Darkness is a lower vibration of light. It’s like a dimmer switch, and darkness is the light turned down low. The light is not extinguished. You just can’t see it. No matter what anyone is doing, no matter what the circumstances of their lives, their families, their work, the status of their finances, health and relationships, they are being called always to see the Love that they already are deep inside. As so it is too for the people of Poland, they are, together as a collective, just like all citizens everywhere, fulfilling the destiny they are here to fulfill. Poland is perfection in motion. It is a land of opportunity and great richness. It is still full of pain and there is much poverty. Yet Love underpins every last square inch of it all. The divisions will not be resolved,  the sorrow not healed, the yearning for happiness and Love not satisfied until all citizens realise the Love that creates all, sustains all and is the essence of their very own hearts.

I feel the rawness of the sorrow and pain caused by so many years of oppression. I can feel it here, because this is the same pain and sorrow shared by all people everywhere. We have all suffered abuse. We all carry hurt and pain inside. I am thankful every time i feel it, for it allows me then to turn to it, like the abandoned child that has been left on my doorstep and open my heart to it, welcoming it back home, speaking to it, spending time with it, all the time it wants and saying to it ‘I love you. How may i serve you?’. And like with any child whom one has hurt, it takes time to comfort and console that child. The child is still frightened, and when addressed with love, it is unsure of what it is experiencing. It needs time to adjust. It requires one to set aside the right space, to slow down, to do very little other than be with that child until that child feels safe again, is confident again that it can stand on its own two feet, confident that the love in its own heart which has been shaken can be reignited again, inspired by the love we have lavished upon it so unconditionally. We lavish love relentlessly on the pain each time it arises. We match the power of suppression that has buried the pain, with the power of love, unwaveringly, until the pain lightens and heals. And it will. And this is principally why i say i am so thankful to Kraków and to Poland for allowing me to touch new deeper levels of sorrow and pain within myself, turn to them, spend time with them, love them and watch them heal in their own unique way, at their own unique pace.


We, citizens of the world, are all angels come down from heaven to inhabit the diverse range of beautiful bodies this earth has brought forth. The sins committed in thought, word and deed, in fact nothing accomplished in thought, word and deed, has anything got to do with the essence of this moment. We are Angels, always, without condition. Our divinity is done and dusted. Viola! Hey Presto! Dear Angel, This is who you are. We have come down here not to make little of our story, but to be part of the story, not to cast aspersions on lives of misery and pain and sorrow, but to live these lives, to endure them for as long as it takes for us to eventually see that love is what comes shining through in the end, to truly feel what it is like to live this story, no stone unturned, without suppression, a total complete immersion in the whole story. We are here to heal our bodies, to care for them and nurture them, to listen to the horror in the story that even in peacetime, lies buried deep, to listen and stay with, forever if needs be, our own personal abandoned hurt and abused inner children, until they are satisfied, are confident that love really does answer all, no matter what, hurt and abuse and grief and sorrow, relentlessly and unconditionally, allowing them to feel safe, to open their hearts and to say in return ‘i love you too’

I am so thankful to the wonderful spirit on Earth that is Matt Kahn whose guidance has opened my heart to the divine being that i am, inspiring me to live a life of happiness and peace like never before. I see a way forward. I see new paradigms of Love arising. I see a new revolution sweeping our planet. A revolution that carries with it an intensity of Love that  moves openingly, unconditionally and non judgmentally among all vibrations that come its way. A revolution which instead of subjugation, brings healing. A revolution that to a world still struggling to cope with a history that continues to weigh heavily on its shoulders, brings a lasting peace, a true peace that’s found first in the heart of all citizens. Each citizen in their own unique way, finding a deep peace in their own hearts, is the first step to a new way of living on this planet. The love we already are, which we must first show to ourselves, is our signpost towards a new earth, towards communities who live together, thrive together, side by side in harmony. Then, we, angelic citizens of earth will create principles, guidelines and constitutions which will sustain, honour and celebrate this harmony. I see this revolution of love becoming manifest on earth in a myriad of ways, but principally i feel we will need these 3 elements: Recognition, Healing and Time:


We all need to recognise that we are spirit beings inhabiting physical bodies and that we are all called to love our own bodies. As Jesus said ‘ Love your neighbour, as you love yourself


  1. Passive Healing: Some will find their energy will be passive, meaning for example, by being the loving being one is, and first loving their own bodies they effortlessly inspire others to do the same
  2. Active Healing: Some will find their energy will be active, meaning for example, by being the loving being one is, and first loving their own bodies they effortlessly establish new societies of love in which all citizens are cherished equally and loved equally and in which new mechanisms are created to distribute the wealth and riches of the world evenly to all
  3. Hybrid: A mixture of the Active and Passive Healers in varying degrees


We, angelic citizens of the world will not let go of the desires that sustain sorrow and grief and injustice and greed and oppression and subjugation and envy and jealousy and pain and poverty and fear. These desires will let go of us, when we love them, unrelentlessly love them, forever love them and when they are satisfied that the love they are experiencing is honest and lasting, authentic and true.

May all the people of Poland and everyone, everywhere be blessed and it is so

Alleluia ! ☺

This morning, my penultimate morning in Poland, in the home of my kind Polish couchsurfing host, whom i did eventually make contact with, as i slowly open my eyes to another new day, and lie again in that twilight zone between sleeping and waking, i dream i am in Hungary, looking from answers, and i came to a café and ask a guide for directions and the customers were all listening intently to some speaker who was leading a very informal, casual, fun, workshop, and my guide said to the gathering ‘excuse me, my friend would like some directions’. Simultaneously, in unison, they all turned and focused so intently now on me, with unconditional, non judgemental wide open eyes and then they all said to me in one voice ‘We love you’.

May you and everyone, everywhere be blessed and it is so. Alleluia ! ☺

image : Bernatka Footbridge by Mariusz Kedzierski                      http://www.flickr.com/photos/75864158@N06/

We Are Angels


Nothing you have thought, said or done in the past has anything got to do with the essence of you in this moment. You are a spirit being on a glorious mission. You have been ordained from on high to honour, celebrate and glorify your body which you now guide back to the light from where your body has come. You are blessed and will always be blessed for eternity. Your body carries the imprint of your parents and their parents and all their ancestors back to the beginning of time. You carry all this too and more, for you are from beyond all sense of time and space. You exist forever.

Any difficulty you face in your life is not a result of past misdemeanours, but a result of your choice to come an earth and receive all energies that come your way, celebrate the happiness and allow all the difficulties to be fully felt, loved without judgement or condition, like no one has ever done before, for the wellbeing of your body and the wellbeing of all. Until we see that our spirit selves are perfection in motion, down here on earth to guide our bodies which still carry the pain and hurt of the ages in our cellular memory, there will be no lasting healing. We are the beautiful beings, we have been searching for. Like a parent who has abandoned their child, and now, realising what they have done, returns, embraces and comforts that child, let us stand in our divinity and give our bodies a chance to relax, like never before.

And so we all have cause to celebrate right now. No matter what circumstance you find yourself in this very moment, whether you feel happy or sad, confident or fearful, i invite you to take one moment out of your schedule now, if possible, or later, and join with me and say ‘We are Beautiful, Each and Everyone of Us without Exception’

Let us stand in our divinity and allow our bodies the focus that they truly deserve after all these years of effort. Let our divinity shine forth like never before so that our bodies can feel that they can now truly relax, like never before, for there is a force that has woken up inside which will now guide them home

I say these words thanks to the remarkable guidance i receive from my spirit guides, inspired by the wonderful teacher here on earth, Matt Kahn.

May you all be blessed and it is so 🙂

My Body, My Tummy and My Food



My Body My Tummy and My Food

I write to share with you a clear breakthrough, a shift i have experienced in my body thanks to all the love, my love, to the love of the whole world, and to the love in the heart of Matt Kahn and the guidance he shares with all. It is particularly inspired by Matts latest Youtube video, ‘The End of Inner Conflict’.

I share this simple but powerful story because i feel it may help others (and my tummy agrees), who also have tummy issues, to see what is right in front of them, everyday. This story is about the way i eat, not what i eat, for my diet is a healthy one. 

I have been called to care for my body all my life. On an energetic level this calling became clearer 10 years ago, and now Matts video inspires a fine tuning to another new level. Simply put, i have begun to really speak directly to my body and more specifically in this story, to my tummy. Matts clear distinction between the journeys we are on has been revolutionary. He invites us to realise that it is not we who are on the journey but our bodies. This is a rock in the flow of my stream, a resting point to pause, to reflect, to look back, to look around me, to prepare and realign for new possibilities. It builds on the wonderful foundations Matt has assisted me with, foundations that have for me being reinforced again and again in his videos and in accepting always that ‘everything is here to help us’. But there were some very specific occasions when the teachings fired within me aha moments, or as i like to call them, ‘holy shit’ moments. There have been many. Today these are the ones that stand out:

  1. Youtube videos, ‘Raising your Vibration’ and ‘Anchoring a new Consciousness’. On St Valentines day 2015 and a few days before, a friend sent me a link to these videos, introducing me to Matt, whose energetic transmission turned a key and anchored a new consciousness in my being, opening my heart like never before and yes, raising my vibration. This is how i remember his words, and i paraphrase, ‘Nothing you have thought, said or done in the past has anything got to do with the essence of this moment. You are an angel from heaven experiencing the diversity and magnificence of your power. No matter how dark, no matter how light, it is all love. Keep going’.  
  2. After attending Matts Angel Academy 7 and his 5day Retreat in March this year i felt confirmed, ordained into a level of love i have never known before  
  3. Matts Youtube video, ‘The Path of Courage’: The difference between a narcissist and an energetically sensitive soul, and the inspiration to stand more fully than ever before into the calling i feel deep in my heart and now this latest video
  4. Matts Youtube video, ‘The End of Inner Conflict’: Respect the body, its the body’s journey not yours.

After watching the video ‘The End of Inner Conflict’ i felt immediate change, something had shifted, a lightness like i had never known, a clarity which i couldn’t put into words, it was like there was a clearing ahead into which i was invited to enter and i knew it was good. The clearing ahead became clearer to me. As i moved through the day the simple but profound task of being with my tummy began to emerge as a top priority. Now as i began to eat, i felt in a new way, with greater clarity that,

  1. I was eating too fast
  2. I was eating too much

This i have known and faced for many years, but now as i turned to my body yet again, i spoke more directly to it, it was as if it was the only concern i had, as if the journey to my light was now over and that all that mattered was that my body was relaxed. And being as relaxed as i have ever being, and spending lots of time with my tummy, i slowly over these last days began to hear my tummy speak to me like it had never done before. I have being stuffing myself for years. Now this truth seemed to drop deeper. Deep into the recesses of my belly, my digestive organs, bombarded as they have been, deep into my ancestral womb, into the anger and rage of the generations at the quality and quantity of the food i was receiving, deep into the instinct for survival, but also deep into the call and being true to the call to come into my body, fully into my body, deep into my body, deep into the agonised acceptance of what i was receiving and into the addictive behaviour this has established, and yet deeper still into the acknowledgement of the glimmer of light that held me all these years which said it was all good, perfect, all a manifestation of love, all love in disguise, dressed up as oppressiveness and insensitivity and the subconscious acquiescence, agape like chicks in a nest, to a competitive, stressful, painful way of life. On a train last Thursday August 31, as i gazed out the window, i reflected on the virgoan season we are going through, finding places in my body hidden and suppressed for years, places holding the cellular memory of hurt, and taking the opportunity to really go there, knowing this place, feeling this place and committing myself to stay there forever if needs be, with a piece of bread in front of me, into which i have hidden so much, i honoured the bread, i let my body decide if it needed it and i realised as i did, as i respected the bread and my body simultaneously, i realised the following

  1. As i grew up, love was hard to come by, so i found that food satisfied my desire for love, it was one of the few beautiful things i could experience on my terms and be able to control it
  2. The more i could get, the happier i was. The faster i could get it, the happier i was. And so i eat too much and too fast
  3. And because my happiness was tied to the food i ate, wasting food, not finishing the plate, meant i was wasting happiness and the opportunity for more beauty and bliss and love. Therefore my tummy had the further humiliation of being a dump.
  4. Now i realise how i have abused my body and I have spoken to my tummy like never before and said ‘i am sorry, i just didnt know the magnitude of what i was doing. I can see now. As i eat i will be speaking with you, until i learn how to treat you with love. And i need you to show me how to care for you, how to answer your needs. I have become addicted to a way of eating, my jaw and teeth move to an ingrained rhythm, the mouth prepares itself for the intake and you my friend await in fear and brace yourself in defensiveness for the onslaught of my eating habits. I have been sending ‘i love yous’ for over 2 years, to all my wonderful inner children and many now have become friends and are happy to take the hand of love i offer them as they walk their journey to peace and relaxation. But i have noticed some particular hurts still cry out to me, and one hurt is you. Each time i sat to eat my food and i thanked the universe for the abundance i partake of, there has been an instantaneous, ‘Ah, piss off, a load of rubbish’ response from inside. I now for the first time realise where this is coming from and how to address this abandoned voice, you my beautiful tummy, with love.

So each meal is now a special time for me, my food and my tummy. And i know my tummy wants to express gratitude to all who have inspired me to keep going, keep moving, keep changing, keep consuming, keep ensuing, keep touching, keep breathing and keep loving. My tummy is more content than ever before. This isn’t the first time my tummy and i have spoken. It is the first time that my tummy can turn to me and respond to me with trust. I can now call my tummy my friend, on the condition, for the moment at least, that i keep focused and continue to love it with every bite i take, show my tummy that my love and gratitude is real. Spending so much time with my tummy, i realise the physical/emotional scars i have inflicted on it physically. I want to acknowledge how wonderful and powerful my tummy has been, that despite my lack of care and abuse, it is still in good condition, still wants to take food, and so quickly, within a matter of days has warmed to my loving overtures and is really happy we are now talking and growing in trust. The scars may take some time to heal and this will  principally be by allowing my body to adjust to eating slowly, without eating too much. I am gentle and sensitive and i give my tummy all the tummy-care it needs now. As i write these words and edit and reedit them, i fall deeper in love with my tummy and feel the healing taking place and lightness entering my body like never before. Thank you for reading my message, your presence and the space your reading of it holds for me, is very healing and greatly appreciated. I extend boundless gratitude and buckets of love to YouTube and all the beautiful people who i have met along the wonderful journey into my body. Thank you tummy, I love you ❤

​Water is a Powerful Transformer

If you feel overwhelmed in a sea of emotion, then, in order to remind yourself of the magnificence of the power you are immersed in, you need to get out of the water, sit on the shore and watch the power before you. Then when you want to, go back into the sea. Repeat as often as it is necessary for you to realise that all the emotions which have caused you so much difficulty are really as much a part of the beauty of the sea as you now are, moving through it so gracefully. Repeat again and again until you, your emotions, your fellow human beings, all forms and images, all earth bound fantasies and celestial visions, dissolve like salt in water, into the majesty of heavens golden, eternal, fathomless sea

A Message from God

This is a message from God, via Matt Kahn, via Me:

You already know what to do. You just don’t trust it as Divine guidance. When there is nothing but Divine guidance, there remains nothing to distrust and everything to choose. Whether anyone else thinks your choices align with their highest desires has nothing to do with the choices you were born to make. If it resonates, it’s a part of your evolution and whatever helps you evolve can only inspire growth in others – no matter how disappointed, hurt, or heartbroken they may initially be. Are you willing to trust your inner wisdom or continue taking responsibility for other people’s experiences? Only your most courageous decisions can ever tell the tale. In the new spiritual paradigm, we follow our hearts as a way of loving what arises. Equally so, we love what arises to build up the courage to follow our hearts. 

Matt Kahn

The Beauty of Sex

The birds and the bees dont need any manual, any one to teach them the techniques of effortless, natural, pleasurable sex, so why do we? What we face, when we come face to face with another, is ourselves. I dare myself, i dare you, i dare everyone to come face to face with our true selves first, so that we can transform from looking to others for the love we so desperately seek, to realising that that same love already resides within. And sometimes the journey within seems so distant, so hard to grasp, beyond reach. For how can we know what it is that we will find within, how can we be inspired to look within, when most of us feel we’ve never been there before? Whats the spark that can turn us to face within and keep us there?

When we dare to slow down, tune into a different vibration than what we have been taught to believe in, tune into our own vibration, become more conscious of our own being and know as we have always known, the love, the power, the eternal flame that burns within us, this becomes our spark, our guide that shows us that we have always known the light that we are, but have forgotten. When we dare to slow down, we begin to recognise that we are unconditional nonjudgemental light, that we can begin again in our own time, at our own pace, when we know that we are ready, when it feels right inside, to love again, to love everything we see and scent, hear, taste and touch, everything that we feel emotionally, without reservation of any kind. We begin to be more conscious of and loving of ourselves, an evolving love, and we effortlessly become more conscious of the other; you reach out your hand, instinctively, playfully, to touch the other, to be seen for who you are, to be touched because you are who you are, then, in sex, the artist you are, will paint that picture that only you are capable of painting. This is the beauty of sex…. well, one of them anyway!!

Angels by Krystn
‘i have a secret’ by Krystn, flickr

Thinking Globally, isn’t enough anymore

If we expand our awareness globally, we can see the extent of the destruction and the direction our systems are going in. Yet, why stop at the edges of our world, we can expand the picture further, expand to the furthest reaches of our universe, and why stop there, for there are more dimensions again, vast areas of the unknown in our current understanding of things, that inspire us, prompt us to recede, within an instant, right back into ourselves, our own inner galaxies of planets and moons and diving deeper we find again that there is no end, we find again vast areas of the unknown. Yet, singing and dancing in this mystery, we find therein the heartbeat of everything, love. For who has created the land, and the seas and the skies which we are polluting, who has created the manufacturers of pollutants, who has created the incomparable intricacy and dexterity of the human form, and given it the power to lift a barrel of oil and spill it into our waters. Who has presented us with the magnificence of the human brain, and given it the power and the will to choose to create its own world, all things from the most depraved acts of violence, to the most blissful, ecstatically joyful experiences we can imagine. I send you this message to reassure you that there is love underlying everything and anything that you can perceive. In the end this is what will come shining through. All things will pass, only love will remain, as it was in the beginning is now and ever shall be, love without end amen.

image ‘you are like a star, part of the eternal perfection’  by Alice Popkorn, flickr

Alice Popkorn you are like a star


Sometimes we have to go backwards to move forward.

Deep down we all aspire to be the best that we can be, we all aspire to live the best life we can live. Right now we may feel very frustrated because its not flowing, there are complications, hold ups. I wanted to write to you to reassure you that all is ok. Sometimes we have to go backwards to move forward. If your intention is honest and loving, this will shine through in the end. There are 5 planets in retrograde at present. Combining my own heartfelt intuitive sense of these changing times with the planetary awareness of astrologers like Sheri Horn Hasan of Karmic Evolution, Dr. Mathew Maher, Jungian Astrologer and others i can see something of the bigger picture. In a nutshell, we humans are been asked to get our house in order first before we move to new horizons. Are your family, friendship, health and financial affairs in order. If not, take time out over the month of May and put things in order as much as possible for you at this time. Relax and breath, take your time, be gentle with yourself. These are the areas of our lives in which we are faced with most of our most difficult challenges. That’s why there are so many loose ends that are longing to be tied up.

May you be blest on your journey and it is so ❤


image: ‘home’ by alice popkorn, flickr

We no longer need Jesus, The King or the Superstar

In the old paradigm Jesus spoke to the masses, the King ruled the masses, and the Superstar Singer wooed the masses.

In the new paradigm, Jesus speaks to your inner wisdom, the king is nurtured by your inner wisdom and the superstar singer vibrates from your inner wisdom

We have been fed a musical diet of adoration of the superstar singer who comes to us to inspire the longing in our hearts for love and new heights of living. Yes they inspired and am very grateful, yet at the same time they instilled in us the feeling that we could never achieve such heights, for the example they gave was so far out of reach, the glitter, the production, the lights, the sound, all the razmataz, backed by so many supporting professionals, these people were and still are living on a different planet. For every musician or singer that made it to this planet on high, there were thousands more, just as talented, with the same message, left feeling inadequate and unfulfilled. We need new ways to express ourselves and they are evolving as we speak.

Today, there is music everywhere. Once it could only be legit if on stage, radio or record. These top down barriers are dissolving. Music, the right to sing and dance as you yourself wish to, is slowly becoming democratic, not just the preserve of the elite. We can record ourselves and copy cds, shoot videos and design posters, create events and advertise to the world with very simple diy equipment.

Sing as if no one is looking, Dance as if no one is watching.’

Lets all allow the sounds and movements that are unique to each one of us to shine forth, Let us drop the shackles of the old paradigm, turn to our innate music, apologise to it for abandoning it for so long, not on purpose, for we did not know what we were doing, we only did as our parents did, as their parents did. Ask your music, ‘how would you like to express yourself?’. Go on, let it rip!!

We no longer need Jesus, the King or the Superstar, for the light is already inside

alice popkorn the secret of time

The Shitiest Experience offered me The Deepest Love

Until we come to see that all the experiences we live through, the competitiveness, the attempted control of the other, the dog eat dog money world and so on, are here to help us, to show how powerful we are, we will never evolve. These experiences say to us, ok you’ve taken all this battering, you’re still standing, you’ve played the game, you’ve clinged tenaciously to your identity and though you have been so tough, in your vulnerability you still show how loving you can be. Through all the burdens of your life that you have called shit, you were still able to recognise The Love that is at the heart of all. You have come through to see that no matter what you have experienced, you are always experiencing Love. ‘As Love pervades everything what is it that we are not thankful for’ Amma

In my life it is the difficult experiences more so than anything else that have turned my face to my light, my love. I do not call these experiences shit, i call them loving kind messages from my higher self, the only way my higher self was able to get through to me, or maybe more accurately the only way i could hear my higher self. I have lived most of my life-giving my power away to others, playing the cunning games of deception most of us do, scavenging from our masters tables, thru no fault of our own, for this is how we have all been reared, and our ancestors before us for thousands of years. I have given my power away to all forms of authority, to my parents wanting their love, to my teachers wanting their love, to my lovers wanting their love, and when finally, i lost the game, when finally i had been outwitted by the forces of lovers and circumstance, i had no more tricks, no more strategies, no more masks to wear. Without my masks, spiritual exercises included, i was distraught and depressed. All the crutches i had crafted so brilliantly, and lets acknowledge how brilliant this crafting is, all these were taken away from me. Yet it was only through facing this devastation in my life that i could see the love that is within me. In my spiritual practice, i thought i had ‘let go’ of a lot of stuff. But that was just another mask. Now i know i had let go because my whole body felt it. It had to be the ‘shitiest’ experience that showed me the deepest love, the love i have for me, not the search for love from others, which is an unanswerable craving, sending the human race chasing its own tail. I cant describe my most painful experience as my ‘shitiest’, it was a most glorious moment for which i am eternally grateful. And so all the challenges of our lives are golden opportunities to love deeper than ever before

In Summary, until we, men and women everywhere, can see that everything is here to help us, that all experiences are an expression of love, we humans are not going to move into the life of bliss and ecstasy which is our destiny

If you wish to explore these thoughts further, for i feel there are specific signposts that can guide us along a more relaxing path, stay tuned for i am creating a webtv channel dedicated to SelfLove which will celebrate the power of love that radiates everywhere in everything, from everyone, always. Alleluia. 🙂

the scream
image by Brian Sawyer, flickr

What is your Core Motivation?

The core motivation, or to put it another way, the core vibration on which all elements, theories and techniques, beliefs, notions, ideas, thoughts and feelings are founded is that vibration which says ‘whatever arises love that’ (matt kahn). Unless we can see that everything in life is here to help us, to show us how to love deeper than ever before, which means firstly speaking to, if we are not already, and loving our inner being, our inner child, particularly all those thoughts and emotions that we find difficult, all those dreams and cravings we find farfetched, then all the theories and techniques, beliefs, notions, ideas, thoughts and feelings in our present world will remain polarised, our homes lacking vital energy, our food quality decreasing, our relationships tense, our governing and financial systems strained, our sex stagnant and one dimensional, our music sounding like a noisy gong. Get in touch today with your core motivation and live it, for a happier life.

alice popkorn map

image ‘Treasure Quest’ by Alice Popkorn, CC flickr, https://flic.kr/p/9aAUWt    

Setting Goals

This post was written on news years day and was inspired as i considered setting resolutions for 2016. Although its February now, i decided to post it anyway for i believe every day is a new beginning and therefore an opportunity to align ourselves with new more dynamic supportive energies:

I sit looking out at the grey skies that are so beautiful, the withering leaves full of life, and i celebrate every cell in my body, those which are dying those which are thriving, this wondrous complex amalgam that collaborates to form this being called fionntáin, that breathes and walks and eats and sleeps and breathes and walks and eats and sleeps again

I celebrate you, a reflection of me, mirroring my words, my thoughts and my deeds back to me as i settle down to choose the goals and strategies that most effectively align with my vision for the highest good of all.
I celebrate the freedom i have, the power within me that follows my own guru, to be honest and true to my unique inner light as i watch my vision unfold in 2016

I ask for all that i desire. I am thankful for all that i am. I celebrate all that comes my way.


image is courtesy of the wonderful Alice Popkorn, flickr. Thank you Alice once again!

Law of Attraction ☆ Manifestation

We are all angels on earth come down to experience the power of love in all its diversity, even at times of great tragedy, there is still love. ‘As love pervades everything what is it that we are not thankful for‘ Amma. To know that we are already beautiful, already perfect, already divine has been for me one of the greatest revelations of my life and goes directly against the story i was told, the story that says that i am a sinner and i need to do something to make up for, to make recompense for my sins, i have to prove i am worthy. Now in this new paradigm of love that is flowering on our planet, the message that brings so much relief to so many people is that you are already loved, just as you are, love is who you are.

In this new paradigm therefore, mindful of the great longing that thrives on this planet, a longing to manifest health, happiness and home, i would direct you to the following:

1. Ask for everything you want and i mean everything, for it is all love.

2. At the same time, nurture within yourself a gratitude for everything you have and i mean everything, for it is all love.

3. Lastly, celebrate all that arises and i mean everything, for it is all love.

Sometimes we may not get what we asked for, the universe is always giving us what we really want and sometimes we are not consciously aware of what we really want

This is a very short summary of my feelings around manifestation, feelings informed mainly by the wonderfully loving guide, Matt Kahn. I leave you for now with this clip by Matt on youtube.

Farewell My Steel Guitar

I’ve just sold my steel guitar. My Daddy bought it for me in Glenamaddy, County Galway. I’ve had it for 34 years and it’s only now i realise how much it has meant to me. In my youth when i could connect to little else in life other than god, about whom i was constantly misinformed and the touch of another human being, which i didn’t get a lot of, my guitar became such a friend. I struggled with it most of the time, just as i struggled with myself. But there were times when we soared together, and reminded one another of the love which is our essence, from whom we have come. Many years later I bought a spanish guitar, which i began to favour and play more. Eventually my steel guitar was left untouched on its stand, a nice piece of furniture gathering dust. To lighten my load and keep the energies of life flowing, i felt it was time for it to move on. In my ad i said it was waiting for a nice new home. It found its home in Kildare with someone who i feel will take good care of it.

In the midst of the financial transaction i forgot to wish it farewell. I had forgotten how much it meant to me. I went back to my hovering and suddenly, only an hour after it was gone, it hit me. All the memories came flooding back. I wept. All the emotions. I’m so sorry i didn’t say good bye to you, to say to you how much you have meant to me so, how you were such a friend all those years. How you allowed me to be me. How you were so willing, so open to unconditionally express all my cravings, my tensions, my music, my light. I say it to you now. I am so grateful to you for all you’ve given me, for all the times you allowed my light to shine, so beautifully.

After grieving your departure, i now realise how we both were a mirror for each other. It was one of your sisters i had played and enjoyed in Goodwins music shop, Dublin. Thats the guitar i wanted. But i could not override my fathers wish to use the opportunity to extend his business connections and deal with a music shop in a nearby village. And you came along, you a japanese copy of an american guitar, production of which ceased after the intervention of the courts. Similarly, I too was acquired through my fathers wish to extend his connections with a person in a nearby village and spent my youth copying all that i saw around me, which reluctantly and painfully slowly ceased after the intervention of many many difficult life experiences. Yet despite… no its not despite, its because of the unease in our births and upbringings, we both have learnt and grown a lot together. We have shown through it all that there is, at the core of all, nothing but unconditional love and we have revealed our willingness and openness to share this love with all. I am so grateful for all of it. I was not as aware until now how powerfully the energies of life exist in all things, animate and inanimate.

It is, i feel, very appropriate that you have departed. Your new companion has expressed his liking for you, has chosen you and not a relation. I have new space now to bring new energies into my life, let go of stagnancies and move on to a creative expression that is more truly me, not just a copy of something ive seen someplace or heard from somone.
I wish you well in your new home and send you all my love. Forever friends.


The Indescribable Face of Love

Hello, all you beautiful people. On this day of the new moon, during this the celtic festival of Imbolc, a pregnant time, I feel the energies all round me and within me change. The winds blow strong like never before. This for me is the indescribable face of the greatest love i know, i.e., if you want to live a life of happiness and bliss, beyond your wildest dreams, one in which all your desires are satisfied, aligned with the deepest calling of your heart, watch this.


In these days of the Goddess Brigit in celtic lands, in this season of new life pregnant with possibility, when we honour Goddesses from every land, i wish to share with you some thoughts on gender

My core and the core of everyone and everything is divine. My spiritual journey has been focused on a meriad of pathways in an effort to reach this divinity. Yet all these pathways, whilst essentially good, were eventually leading me round in circles, chasing my tail, saying beautiful things, partaking in wonderful events, even at times feeling blissful and ecstatic, but not letting me see the ectasy of the divinity in my own core right here, right now in my own body, a boundless brillance beyond understanding and definition, beyond gender, beyond notions of right and wrong, good and bad, the divine already within. When i first discovered this or more accurately, when my body truly could feel this, inspired by the wonderful Matt Kahn, i was so excited, this was a real ‘holy shit’ moment. Like never before, I could really take a deep relaxing breath.

We are all angels come to experience the cornucopia of loves dimensions, each of us in our own unique way. All that we have experienced no matter how hateful obsurd brilliant joyful or sad, is a result of our angelic desire to experience all, to feel every emotion, think every thought, make every decision, live through all that life has to offer, all in order to reveal how deep, how wide, how far love can go. These experiences include the notion that there are separate species, and within species there is male and female, with a meriad of emotional responses to one another, everything from attracted to repelled.

There are no genders, there is no separation, there is only love. There is physical form which is beautiful. And this beauty desires more. For the majority of us, the satisfaction of our sexual desire is one way in which we manifest our deepest desire for unity, for oneness. For the majority of us too, the pleasure of sex does come with a lot of anxiety attached. Now, we can all relax, for the unity, the oneness we desire, already is. The body rises to the call of ecstatic union from the cradle of its divinity, in the glorious bonding of our feminine and masculine selves already complete within. In the affirmation of and awakening to this union within, I have found a new depth of relaxation. In this relaxation i have found a space to love myself, truly love myself, to be relaxed with me. This is the love that fuels my sexual expression. Without it every encounter with another, for me, is an exercise in control.

Although i call myself a man, at my core i am genderless, divine. On this day of the feminine let us remember that our Goddesses come to us to shine a light of love that show us a deeper way to a land where there is no feminine and masculine, where male and female, day and night have merged unconditionally and are at peace, where all dissolves into mystery

Ellen might say
‘Do we have to be so hung up on whether someone is male or female. Why cant we just love everybody and judge them by the car they drive’


Image Credit : ‘New Birth’ by the wonderful Alice Popkorn on flickr



As a being who has accepted the title and role of manhood, i have struggled most of my life with being the male i am, a manifestation of spirit, god, absolute, emptiness, in a multi dimensional female world, full of life, of people, of flow and of fullness. I have constantly craved release from this unease.
I am so happy to say i have found release and continue to release
I am so thankful to say i have heard the sound of loves new revolution as spoken through the vessel of Matt Kahn
I am so happy to say that this sound fills my whole mind and body.
I am so thankful to greet all my unease, my anger, my jealously, all my fears and say, I love you, now, how may i serve you?
I am so happy to greet you, the feminine that has always dwelt in me, to open the door at which you have waited for so long and say, welcome, i’m sorry, i just didnt know how to speak with you, how to be with you, how to love you.
I am so happy to see you, the feminine in me, reflected back to me in life, in all the women i meet, in all the men i greet,
I am so happy to celebrate the masculine and the feminine in me, in you, in all.
I am so thankful for you all, each and everyone you, i celebrate and love you all, like never before and so it is 💜

thank you Alice Popkorn, flickr, for the beautiful image


ENTERTAINMENT, has many colours in its rainbow. For me it can be summed up thus :
ENTERTAINMENT, the fulfillment and enjoyment of an artists desire and the containment of passion within the limits of an entertainment establishment or recording, diluting the boundless artistic expression of the collective consciousness to the framed expression of a manageable few. There is another way. And this i dream of and will elaborate on soon. For now, to let you dip your toes in the water i say, sing and dance, sculpt draw paint stick glue stand breathe play walk talk shout roar be, as if no one is watching  ☺

The Dead


In these days of the dead, Día de Muertos, All Souls day, the contining rememberings of Samhain, i celebrate all the dimensions of being, the physical, the spiritual, the light the dark, life and death. I celebrate everything for all is love. Particularly today i celebrate all my wonderful ancestors whose hearts still beat in every living breathing cell of my mind and body. This cauldron of power radiates effortlessly into new kaleidoscopes of space and time, new beings who proceed my body and who continue to shine the light of love into eternity and beyond. Halleluia!

Old Paradigm New Paradigm

OLD PARADIGM, Letting go:
Fear arises. Be honest about the fear. Become aware of the fear. Ask/Pray that this fear is ‘cleared’ from  your being or ‘let it go’ But where does this fear go?

NEW PARADIGM, Love all that arises:
Fear arises. Be honest about the fear. Become aware of the fear. Love the fear for that fear comes from, arises from love. All is love and is going nowhere. There is nowhere for it to go. There is nowhere else but here ☺ Have a love filled day. And so it is ☺ (Inspired by Matt Kahn) 

The will of the one be done

The will of the one be done, be done
The will of the one be done.
The will of the one be done, be done
The will of the one be done.
And lo i know that this is so
Yes it is so
The ebb and flow
And lo i know that this is so
Yes it is so
So off i go
You are the love you seek outside
The love you are now deep inside
You are the love you seek outside
The love you are now deep inside
And lo i know that this is so
Your inner child
So fresh so wild
And lo i know that this is so
Love the child your friend your foe
The will of the one be done, be done
The will of the one be done.

A New Paradigm at Bliss Festival


A letter to Rosie Burrows who spoke at the Bliss Festival in Warrenpoint, Northern Ireland, August 8th 2015

Hi Rosie
It is with immense gratitude for your guidance, your fun and your divine presence that I write to you this morning. I attended your workshop at Bliss on Saturday last. It was without  doubt a step forward for me on my spiritual path and another answer from the gods to my desire for relaxation, complete relaxation at all times, so that others may relax at all times too. As i said on the day, your energy resonates with the energy of another teacher i have. He has guided my evolution on, lets say, a mental plane while you are complimenting on a more physical plane, bodyfullness. He, Matt Kahn, might say of suffering, honour and celebrate the suffering, but as soon as you are able, whilst being relaxed, bring your attention to what you are good at, to what pleasures you. And do all this for the good of all.

At the late night dance party on Saturday, I consciously loved the pain/unease in my back, and at the same time looked around the room for all that i found beautiful, and there was a feast of beauty. Whilst honouring the unease i allowed the rest of my body to feel the groove of the music, for which my body required no effort. The energy created by this healing tool was immense. When the music stopped at 2am, i was ecstatic and centered at the same time. I felt I could have danced all night.

I feel we are in a tremendous beautiful fast paced powerful evolutionary moment. There are modalities which bring temporary ecstatic experience, sessions, workshops and retreats that allow people to have wonderful experiences, but which dont last very long, in fact people end up going around in circles. You, Rosie, ride the waves of the new paradigm, teachings that bring beauty and ectasy as an everyday experience. In order to move to deeper and wider and higher expressions of our divine being, there are specific tools required. No longer is it enough to experience the pain, to go inside, relax, feel how upset we are and let out that which is blocked, with tears and other expressions. We must at each moment, while experiencing the pain, expressing whatever needs to be expressed, (and this now is the key moment of the new paradigm), love the pain, thank it for showing you how strong your love is and bring our attention to our beauty, our ecstasy and our pleasure. This may happen for people quickly or slowly. It does not matter. What matters is the intention when the pain or unease arises. As relaxed as we can be, for nothing will change if we are not relaxed, we need to feel our love, our beauty and our pleasure, the gateway to our divine eternal presence. It may feel insincere at first, we are over loaded with subconscious beliefs that tell us we are not beautiful. The call today is to stay with it, like any practise, and it will begin to flow and flow and flow. So this is the play, the drama. Without shifting the attention to what we personally see as beauty there will be no shifting.

With immense joy in my heart i refer you all to Matt Kahn http://www.truedivinenature.com  where you can dive into this ocean of love to your hearts content. 💛

With gratitude and love


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“Everything Is Here to Help You” – Matt Kahn

My message to you today is, relax, everything is going to work out, and particularly to those who are aware of the spiritual journey we are all on and who feel inspired to look within, become still and ‘clear’ any unease that arises, I say to you now, relax and feel and love all these things that arise for they come, inconveniently mostly, to offer you an opportunity to love your divine being in all its boundless majestic manifestations. We are not bad people who have sinned or carry the sins of our ancestors and as a result face sorrow and difficulty, which we must overcome in order to become enlightened. We are divine eternal beings beyond time and space who have chosen to enter life on earth to know, feel and experience all of our boundless manifestations, all the sorrow, all the joys, all the suffering, all the contentment and love them all. To paraphrase Matt Kahn: ‘Everything is going to work out whether you like it or not… deny your destiny all you like… you’re just going to have a more difficult experience’
This is his latest ground breaking video, which explores these ideas further.

Bealtaine 2015 Day 7 The Final Song

Bealtaine 2015 Day 7 a new song for you, sung with love to you, the final song in my week long celebration of this ancient fire festival of love. The lyrics are inspired by Thich Nhat Hanh, Osho, Deepak Chopra and Matt Kahn. Much gratitude to all.


Bealtaine 2015 Day 6

To celebrate Love and Life, Bealtaine and the Fires of Summer, Fertility and the great thrusting Phallus enveloped by the warm nurturing Womb, i will be posting new songs everyday for this first week of May. Alleluia!! I am so thankful to be able to share my music like this. Gratitude once again to Facebook and WordPress, Twitter, LinkedIn and Tumbler, what wonderful resources!!. This is day 6, a sixth song, ‘Thank You’ inspired by the rising sun on summer solstice 2012, grange stone circle limerick, ireland largest stone circle, just 25 minute drive from me. Oh, by the way, I have it on very good authority that Bealtaine lasted the whole month of May in Ireland, giving us plenty of time for fun and frolicking!

Bealtaine 2015 Day 5

To celebrate Love and Life, Bealtaine and the Fires of Summer, Fertility and the great thrusting Phallus enveloped by the warm nurturing Womb, i will be posting new songs everyday for this first week of May. Alleluia!!  I am so thankful to be able to share my music like this. Gratitude to these social media sites, what a wonderful resource!! This is day 5, a fifth song, hot off the press, inspired by all of life, in particular Howard Campbell for encouraging me to sing Psalms, Tom Kenyon  for opening me to the universality of the psalms, and this time this psalm is very loosely based on Psalm 64.


Bealtaine 2015 Day 4

To celebrate Love and Life, Bealtaine and the Fires of Summer, Fertility and the great thrusting Phallus enveloped by the warm nurturing Womb, i will be posting new songs everyday for this first week of May. Alleluia!!  I am so thankful to be able to share my music like this. Gratitude once again to Facebook and WordPress, Twitter, LinkedIn and Tumbler, what wonderful resources!!. This is day 4, a fourth song, inspired by all of life, in particular Howard Campbell for encouraging me to sing Psalms, Tom Kenyon  for opening me to the universality of Psalms, Psalm 90 and its rendition by the Monks of Glenstal Abbey just up the road from me in Limerick

Bealtaine 2015 Day 3

To celebrate Love and Life and Bealtaine and Fertility and the great thrusting Phallus enveloped by the warm nurturing Womb, i will be posting new songs everyday for this first week of May. Alleluia!!  I am so thankful to be able to share my music like this. This is day 3, a third song, a new song called ‘Makes Sense’.

Bealtaine 2015 Day 2

To celebrate Love and Life and Bealtaine and Fertility and the great thrusting Phallus enveloped by the warm nurturing Womb, i will be posting new songs everyday for this first week of May. Alleluia!!  Heres the second one, ‘Je ne regrette rien’. Music by Charles Dumont, lyrics Michel Vaucaire, made popular by Édith Piaf. Enjoy!

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