in 2007 i gave up my architecture business because i was physically, emotionally and mentally exhausted, from the void music arose and i recorded an album, began a music career following the old music business model and found that that sort of thing, wasn’t my sort of thing…. i was surprised that the most favourable comments on the album were about my voice and very little said about the production which i felt was the most impressive element….. i wandered in a musical wilderness for a while and came across chloe goodchild…. she played a drone sound, one single note, and asked someone to come into the centre of the sound healing group and sing, i went in and said ‘what will i sing?’ she said ‘sing to this drone’ ‘am…… huh…. ok’…. that’s when i discovered what i sound like when i sing with my belly….. i applied this new found awareness to my song writing and now being more proficient at recording my music, i found the production of songs much more enjoyable and free flowing, resulting in 4 demo albums of new songs….. my school said that engineering was my forte and music was a hobby, i now discovered that its the other way round.… as my marriage was coming to an end, access to my sound studio was erratic and i again found myself wandering in the musical wilderness, experiencing everything from deep depression and fear to glimpses of joy and beauty. At a mens group gathering in the czech republic 2013 i was singing to the mountains with my guitar when i was asked to go acapella, an unforgettable moment….. i left ireland in 2016, feeling i may never come back and i sang acapella to sliabh an iarainn, the royal mountain of my childhood, before i left, another unforgettable moment…. my wanderings continued, now seeking a place to settle and rest my weary body. The journey brought me back to ireland and here in my forest i have found temporary comfortable accommodation that allows me now at last to sing more freely, pulling out the 4 demo cds recorded in my old studio and playing them on my new livestreams…. they have clinged tight to me these last years and are relieved that now they have become public…. i notice other songs recorded at the same time which i didn’t include in the albums and these touched people’s hearts more than most of what was included…. this experience and messages from my dreams point towards change… my angelic self is all very fine but it needs more grounding…. i am been forced to see this one way or the other… something inside is struggling to get out…. i feel, yes i am worthy and there are gifts all over the place, it’s just that i couldn’t see some of them clearly enough…. but i can see one of them now…. as i walked through the forest yesterday i said i will unwrap this gift this evening friday on facebook live and youtube at 6pm irish time, join me and lets see, hear, feel what it looks, sounds, feels like 
‘oh wait !!’ you say ‘what about the miracle?’ ‘the miracle is you’
see you this evening at 6
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