In these days of the Goddess Brigit in celtic lands, in this season of new life pregnant with possibility, when we honour Goddesses from every land, i wish to share with you some thoughts on gender

My core and the core of everyone and everything is divine. My spiritual journey has been focused on a meriad of pathways in an effort to reach this divinity. Yet all these pathways, whilst essentially good, were eventually leading me round in circles, chasing my tail, saying beautiful things, partaking in wonderful events, even at times feeling blissful and ecstatic, but not letting me see the ectasy of the divinity in my own core right here, right now in my own body, a boundless brillance beyond understanding and definition, beyond gender, beyond notions of right and wrong, good and bad, the divine already within. When i first discovered this or more accurately, when my body truly could feel this, inspired by the wonderful Matt Kahn, i was so excited, this was a real ‘holy shit’ moment. Like never before, I could really take a deep relaxing breath.

We are all angels come to experience the cornucopia of loves dimensions, each of us in our own unique way. All that we have experienced no matter how hateful obsurd brilliant joyful or sad, is a result of our angelic desire to experience all, to feel every emotion, think every thought, make every decision, live through all that life has to offer, all in order to reveal how deep, how wide, how far love can go. These experiences include the notion that there are separate species, and within species there is male and female, with a meriad of emotional responses to one another, everything from attracted to repelled.

There are no genders, there is no separation, there is only love. There is physical form which is beautiful. And this beauty desires more. For the majority of us, the satisfaction of our sexual desire is one way in which we manifest our deepest desire for unity, for oneness. For the majority of us too, the pleasure of sex does come with a lot of anxiety attached. Now, we can all relax, for the unity, the oneness we desire, already is. The body rises to the call of ecstatic union from the cradle of its divinity, in the glorious bonding of our feminine and masculine selves already complete within. In the affirmation of and awakening to this union within, I have found a new depth of relaxation. In this relaxation i have found a space to love myself, truly love myself, to be relaxed with me. This is the love that fuels my sexual expression. Without it every encounter with another, for me, is an exercise in control.

Although i call myself a man, at my core i am genderless, divine. On this day of the feminine let us remember that our Goddesses come to us to shine a light of love that show us a deeper way to a land where there is no feminine and masculine, where male and female, day and night have merged unconditionally and are at peace, where all dissolves into mystery

Ellen might say
‘Do we have to be so hung up on whether someone is male or female. Why cant we just love everybody and judge them by the car they drive’


Image Credit : ‘New Birth’ by the wonderful Alice Popkorn on flickr

Published by fionntáin

In 2005 i had a profound spiritual experience leading me to record my debut album, ‘Under the Great Shady Tree’. I have faced depression, sadness, anger, jealousy, guilt, sexual craving, loss, grief, disapproval, fear, loneliness and many other emotions and have found the strength within to keep going. In 2015 i had another profound spiritual experience which opened my heart wider still, and allows me today to see that everything we experience is here to help us. Today i have left most of the modalities i have practiced in the past and live with the ever increasing knowing that I am the creator of my reality. I am the only one.

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