Until we come to see that all the experiences we live through, the competitiveness, the attempted control of the other, the dog eat dog money world and so on, are here to help us, to show how powerful we are, we will never evolve. These experiences say to us, ok you’ve taken all this battering, you’re still standing, you’ve played the game, you’ve clinged tenaciously to your identity and though you have been so tough, in your vulnerability you still show how loving you can be. Through all the burdens of your life that you have called shit, you were still able to recognise The Love that is at the heart of all. You have come through to see that no matter what you have experienced, you are always experiencing Love. ‘As Love pervades everything what is it that we are not thankful for’ Amma
In my life it is the difficult experiences more so than anything else that have turned my face to my light, my love. I do not call these experiences shit, i call them loving kind messages from my higher self, the only way my higher self was able to get through to me, or maybe more accurately the only way i could hear my higher self. I have lived most of my life-giving my power away to others, playing the cunning games of deception most of us do, scavenging from our masters tables, thru no fault of our own, for this is how we have all been reared, and our ancestors before us for thousands of years. I have given my power away to all forms of authority, to my parents wanting their love, to my teachers wanting their love, to my lovers wanting their love, and when finally, i lost the game, when finally i had been outwitted by the forces of lovers and circumstance, i had no more tricks, no more strategies, no more masks to wear. Without my masks, spiritual exercises included, i was distraught and depressed. All the crutches i had crafted so brilliantly, and lets acknowledge how brilliant this crafting is, all these were taken away from me. Yet it was only through facing this devastation in my life that i could see the love that is within me. In my spiritual practice, i thought i had ‘let go’ of a lot of stuff. But that was just another mask. Now i know i had let go because my whole body felt it. It had to be the ‘shitiest’ experience that showed me the deepest love, the love i have for me, not the search for love from others, which is an unanswerable craving, sending the human race chasing its own tail. I cant describe my most painful experience as my ‘shitiest’, it was a most glorious moment for which i am eternally grateful. And so all the challenges of our lives are golden opportunities to love deeper than ever before
In Summary, until we, men and women everywhere, can see that everything is here to help us, that all experiences are an expression of love, we humans are not going to move into the life of bliss and ecstasy which is our destiny
If you wish to explore these thoughts further, for i feel there are specific signposts that can guide us along a more relaxing path, stay tuned for i am creating a webtv channel dedicated to SelfLove which will celebrate the power of love that radiates everywhere in everything, from everyone, always. Alleluia. 🙂
F I O N N T Á I N 