Its funny, after all these years, and having ‘left’ so long ago, I still dream of my early childhood a lot and the village I grew up in. I dreamt last night of walking thru the village again as an adult and noticed that all the shops and businesses I grew up with, were either closed down or had changed owners and business type. I awoke with this strong image and lay on my bed letting it all in. I was home recently and had noticed the same thing as I now seem to be processing in my dream. It has resonances with all of life. Growing up on the main street of this village, the shops and businesses were the social hub. This is where all the other children came from and went to play and pass the time. Their parents were the ‘gods’ of my youth, the untouchables, such was the esteem I held them in. So now seeing their businesses come to an end, its like watching life pass me by. And this is what life is. A collection of events that bring opportunities that you take or not, and when you’ve learnt or not, life moves on. I see the passing of these childhood pyramids as a lesson in letting go and seeing that no matter what we feel is lost, behind it all spirit still lives, my essence remains unchanged. And if i do feel sentimentality arising, well its very welcome, because its a wakeup call to remember again and keep remembering the spirit that is our true essence. And this spirit never lives in a past or a future but only ever in this now. It matters not what is past but only what one feels in this present now.
I had the pleasure of connecting with a free spirit recently whose questions and answers were very focused and inspiring. He inspired the name of a new workshop I give ‘Living the Heartsong’ and at present is suggesting some ideas for a song I might write or sing or whatever comes to me. The title is ‘Lovers for a moment’. Its such a powerful title, it packs a lot of stuff into such a small space. Just like the dream challenges me to go beyond the sentimentality of passing childhood images and look to what’s behind all the memories, what’s really going on, so too this title. It proposes love, open unconditional, boundaryless love that one tends to want, to have, to capture and keep. We yearn for it, we look for it incessantly, and carry our accumulated baggage from one unrequited relationship to another, until someday exhausted from our travels, tired from the increasing load we carry, we come to realise somehow it was always there in the moment, with us in the moment, as lovers for the moment. It proposes a completely different way of looking at couple relationships, which are so influenced by commitment for life scenarios, and suggests that, that one moment connection, that sweet movement in tandem, that eye to eye gentle engagement and words shared enhanced sing their own sweet music, even thought it be for a moment, are as powerful and inspiring as a lifetime of commitment, if entered into (and this is the key), if entered into openly, unconditionally, wanting nothing, just being.
LOVERS FOR A MOMENT
To be in love with what life gives you
To breathe it in, to sense within
To be in love for just this moment
To want no more than what is now.
To be lovers for this moment
No need to look beyond
To be lovers for this moment
Held all-ways, in ineffable sound